04/22/2026
Six years ago today.
A Wednesday.
And somehow itās a Wednesday againā¦ like time circled back just to make sure I remember every detail of the day my life split in two.
Brayce, I miss you in a way that doesnāt soften. Not with time. Not with anything.
How does a parent live without their child?
Iām still trying to figure that out. Navigating this life without you has been hard in ways I canāt even fully explain.
I miss your laugh the way you would make yourself laugh before anyone else even could. I miss you saying things just to get a reaction out of meā¦ and me shaking my head, even when I didnāt want to smile.
I miss our talks.
And now I find myself listening to the music you loved Green Day, Dance Gavin Dance, Yellowcard, and so many more. Itās the closest I can get sometimesā¦ it feels like youāre right beside me, jamming out like you always did.
I miss you in all the ways that matter and all the ways that hurt.
You were protective in a quiet way. You didnāt always show it, but when it countedā¦ it was there. I see that so clearly now.
Six years later and I still canāt make sense of a world that doesnāt have you in it. I just exist in it.
I love you just as fiercely as I always have. That didnāt go anywhere.
Neither did the ache.
I wish I had one more talk. One more laugh. One more chance to look at you and know youāre okay.
I hope somehow you knowā¦
I never stopped needing you.
I never stopped loving you.
Forever your mom š¤
