06/29/2026
Life after child loss is something no one can truly prepare you for.
For me, those first two years were the hardest. It was a constant roller coaster. I wanted to find joy again. I wanted to celebrate Lindsey’s life, make memories with her siblings, and remind myself—and them—that we are still here…that we still had to live.
But then the waves would come.
The lowest lows I have ever experienced.
Even the smallest, everyday tasks felt impossible. Going to work. Paying bills. Answering emails. Grocery shopping. Just existing took every ounce of energy I had. I still believe that anyone who loses a child should never have to work again. Grief is work all by itself.
It wasn’t until about two years and four months after Lindsey died that I realized I needed to find my footing again. I still had to work, but I needed somewhere to pour my heart.
Shortly afterward, Wild Life Retreat was born.
I think one of the most important parts of healing is finding something that gives your mind somewhere to go.
That looks different for everyone. It might be a hobby, your career, volunteering, creating, gardening, learning, or serving others. The important thing is finding something that sparks your interest enough that you want to keep thinking about it tomorrow.
The first year of the retreats consumed my thoughts. I’m pretty sure everyone around me got tired of hearing about them. But I couldn’t stop dreaming. What would I serve? How did I want these women to feel? What kind of space did I want to create? Every little detail mattered because I wanted them to experience the love and understanding I so desperately needed.
Now, four and a half years later, the retreats are still a huge part of my life, but there’s room for other things now.
I’ve found balance. I’m no longer consumed by one thing. My heart and mind have room to dream again, to create, to learn, to enjoy the people around me, and to simply live.
That didn’t happen overnight. It happened one small step at a time.
If you’re in the middle of the hardest season of your life, please know this:
You don’t have to have the answers today.
Take your time.
Keep trying new things.
Keep saying yes to life, even when your heart says no.
Keep saying yes until you find something that stirs your heart…something that gives your mind somewhere to go. It won’t replace your child. Nothing ever could. But it may give your heart a place to rest, to create, to serve, and to hope.
The lows will still come because love doesn’t end when life does.
You’ll always miss them.
You’ll always love them.
But hold on to this: these painful years are only a small part of eternity.
One day, we will see them again. ❤️