Remembering Jake

06/15/2024

14 years missing our son. Life is still a wonder, still worth living each day to the fullest.

01/04/2024

Today is Jake's birthday. 38 years and still the tears come. No stopping the flood of feelings and memories today. All that I try to keep snug and safe in a special part of my heart and mind comes rushing back. I can take it. Bring it on. Jake was our only son. He will continue to live in our hearts forever.

09/21/2023

06/13/2022

Another year sliding by without you here with us Jakeman. Oh how we miss you. The ache in our hearts is always there. You were loved so completely and deeply from the very moment you were born. That love is with you, surrounds you and keeps you in our lives forever and ever and ever.

01/05/2022

Another birthday and you aren't here with us Jake. Yesterday, I sat and remembered the entire day you were born. Drove myself halfway to the hospital (Dad was scrambling to get home from a job in Chicago). Mom met me and took over the wheel. We raced into Emergency at Medical City. I was having major contractions by then (p.s. you were 2 weeks early!). Somehow made it up the elevator to labor and delivery, and boom! about 30 minutes later you were born! So calm and collected, tons of dark hair and that sweet smile. My boy.

I carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it

e.e.cummings

07/14/2021

”Today I wrote a note to a bereaved mother. I wanted to say don’t believe all those sympathy cards. The ones that say “time heals” and “God only takes the best” and “may your sorrows be lessened.” You’ll only be disappointed. I wanted to say this is the most heart-wrenching, chest crushing, breath stealing tragedy on earth. I wanted to tell her there will be days she wants to die, and friends who will not understand some of the things she does or says.
I wanted to tell her she will still feel her child’s presence at times, sometimes so strongly that it is as if they are dancing just at the edge of whatever activity is going on. And other times she might not feel their presence at all.
I wanted to tell her that her life will not go back, that she will never be the same, because a piece of her left with her child. And that even though the pain does not go away, somehow her soul will eventually make enough room so she can hold it all– the grief, the pain, the joy and the love.
I wanted to tell her… but I didn’t. Instead, I wrote this: I’m sending love, for words are pointless right now. And that is the truth.”
Wonderfully written by Susi Costello
Shared by Hope's Seed.................................
July is National Bereaved Parents month. For those who have lost a child, I see you.

06/13/2021

It's been 11 years today. Seems like forever, and it seems like yesterday. We miss you every second, Jake-man.

01/04/2021

Today would have been Jake's 35th birthday. I miss him every single day. He was ours for 24 years, and he was loved every second of the time he was with us.

For Jake and for all of us:
The LORD bless you and keep you; The LORD make His face shine upon you, And be gracious to you; The LORD lift up His countenance upon you, And give you peace.
Numbers 6:25-26