06/08/2026
Today was one of those days that reminds me of the realities of ministry. Please know that this post may not be easy to read.
I was sitting at my desk looking at invoices. It seems like when it rains, it pours. Not one, not two, but FOUR A/C units need replacing. FOUR. I looked at all the other bills, and I was overwhelmed. I felt like I couldn't catch my breath. So I got up. I looked out one window and saw Monika and her crew organizing food out in the heat. It is so hot out there, but we have no space, so there they are, working tirelessly for others. I looked out another window and saw the parking lot and immediately felt overwhelmed by everything that still needs to be done. But even in that, as I looked outside, I was reminded that God has it all under control.
I decided to walk back to my office. I was about to call David over. I sat down and said, "Lord, sometimes this is way harder than I thought it would be. I am overwhelmed." People don't often see this part of ministry. They see meals being served, groceries being distributed, and stories of lives being changed. What they do not always see is the weight that comes with loving people who are hurting. Many of the people we serve are carrying the burdens of addiction, mental illness, trauma, homelessness, and deep loss. We meet them in some of the darkest moments of their lives.
Then all of a sudden, I heard David outside my office window. "Calm down," he said. I looked out the window and saw him and a staff member trying to deescalate a client. Then a loud hit. One of our staff members was punched in the face by a young man who was angry and decided violence was the answer. I saw my husband running. There was blood everywhere, and as everything unfolded, my emotions were running high. I was at a loss. I ran down the stairs. I watched as my nephew ran over and held the young man while David called the police. Then I heard words that stopped me in my tracks. The staff member who had just been hit looked at the young man and said, "Jesus still loves you."
In the midst of overwhelming chaos and despair, with blood running down his face, he said it loud and clear.
"Jesus still loves you."
That is The Mission of Winter Haven. In the good times and bad times… Jesus is at the core of who we are and what we do. The truth is that ministry can be heavy. There are days when I leave feeling sad, overwhelmed, or even angry. There are days when my anxiety is through the roof and I have seen so much pain in a single day. Days when the bills keep piling up and donations keep going down. Days when I see the heaviness our staff carries and the burdens they bear. Days when I see the wear on my husband's physical health and I can’t help but ask, "Lord, how long?" Yet even in the heaviness, Jesus keeps showing up. Miracles keep happening. Staff and volunteers keep caring and they keep believing that every person has value and that no one is beyond the reach of God's grace.
Today was hard, but it was also a reminder that sometimes the greatest display of Christ's love happens right in the middle of the mess and chaos. I am grateful to serve alongside people who choose grace when it would be easier to choose anger. Today, when everything felt overwhelming, God reminded me of what matters most.
"Jesus still loves you."