07/17/2026
Please say a prayer for Liam, his momma, and their whole family.
Liam had an MRI this morning.
I almost didn’t say anything because it feels repetitive at this point. Every few weeks it’s another MRI, another round of waiting, another plea for prayers. I get tired of being the family that’s always asking. And I don’t want to feel … boring? Cut and paste? Redundant ?!?
It’s hard to explain. I know it seems like the same thing over and over because it is. It’s hard for me to even ask close friends for prayers. I feel like I’ve exhausted the situation.
But the truth is, I’m terrified.
I’ve been waking up with panic attacks almost every morning. Before I even open my eyes, my chest is tight and my mind is already preparing for the worst. I wish I could just turn that part of my brain off. I can’t.
Liam looks good. He laughs. He fishes. He plays video games. He hangs out with his brothers. Most days, if you didn’t know his story, you probably wouldn’t think anything was wrong.
But there are little things.
His headaches have picked up. A few other symptoms have crept in.
His labs have been off, nothing crazy just not right.
This morning we found out his adrenal glands haven’t been working right so now Liam will be starting steroids again.
Maybe it’s all explainable. Maybe it’s nothing. Or maybe it isn’t. I always go to “it isn’t”.
The truth is, we’ve gotten really good at pretending cancer isn’t the elephant sitting in the corner of every room. We’ve buried our heads in the sand like ostriches because sometimes that’s the only way to survive this.
We plan birthdays. We go fishing. We cheer at baseball games. We laugh. We make memories. We cling to normal because anything else will swallow us whole.
And then- MRI day comes.
And suddenly you have to look cancer in the face again. You worry and pray but can’t change the results.
I’m petrified to hear the words “it’s back”.
I am scared that every headache means something. Scared because we’ve walked this road before, and I know how quickly life can change.
So if you’re the praying type, would you pray for Liam tonight? Pray for a stable scan. Pray these headaches are nothing. Pray for wisdom for his doctors. Pray for the chemo to have kept the LMD at bay.
And if you think of me… pray that tomorrow doesn’t steal today’s peace. I’m trying really hard not to live in tomorrow, but some days fear is louder than faith.
