03/23/2021
WHO GAVE YOU SPIRIT
OF
FEAR.
In the 2006, I was pregnant of My King Ooreoluwa and somehow all the pregnant women were to be tested for HIV/AID. One of the matrons told us that she was shocked at the outcome of the results as some pregnant women tested positive. Fear gripped me. I couldn't stand up properly and I almost fainted. My vision became so blurred and my heart started beating fast. I started thinking "God! may be I am one of the women" I also reminded myself that, I never lived a reckless life and only had s*x after my wedding. But devil reminded me that i could get it from other means and i again someone i knew died of it four year ago. I also told myself that but i have done HIV test before marriage and devil reminded me that I usually go to saloon to fix my hair and the niddle has pierce my head accidentally several time. I told myself that as a child of God I can never be HIV positive and Devil reminded me of the person that died of Hiv four years ago despite how devoted she was to God. At this junction, I succumbed to fear and accepted that I could be HIV positive truly.
The matron said: "well, we will give everyone of you the result on Tuesday but in case, you don't get your result on Tuesday that means we need you to book appointment for counseling together with your husband.
I went back home in sorrow and fear that I might be positive. My head started aching, I started running temperature, I couldn't eat and sleep. I kept saying to myself: "What if you are positive" I started stooling seriously. My husband was wondering what happened to me and somehow I told him what the matron said. He laughed and asked me who gave you this fear, you can not in any way be positive of HIV.
On Tuesday morning I woke up so early and got to the clinic so early. Alas! It was time to share the result and they started calling names. I felt it was taking forever for them to call my name. This matron called almost every body and my name was not called, my body became so cold, my feet and pam were oozing water and I was expecting the worse.
I stood up with my protruding belly when she was holding the last paper and my name was not called and manage to walk up to her and conversing with her in trembling voice " You haven't not called me, what happened" She looked at me and showed me the last one she was holding and said "Is this for you?". I checked and that was my result, HIV Negative. That very day I vowed never to tolerate fear anymore in life because it is of the devil.
I would have lost that pregnancy out of fear, had cardiac arrest or even died as a result.
Why are you afraid or worried. God did not give you Spirit of fear. The fact that someone that is close to you died does not mean you will die young too.
In 2020 March to be precise at the heat of the pandemic most health worker ran away from work. We kept hearing how nurses were dying but because I was highly conscious of the word God, I did not run away. I was as bold as lion, treating people who were covid 19 positive. One of the residents on his dying bed asked me he would like to sit down in his chair because he was tired lying on his back for days. I carried him and gave him all the care he needed. I prayed with him and when I was leaving his room God told me I should say goodbye to him because he was coming home to rest that same day. Despite all the dead bodies that I touched as a result of covid I refused to fear covid-19 because of the word of God in psalm 91. I kept saying it to myself and refused tolerate fear or anyone that suggested it.
I never stopped working on covid floor up till date and God has been faithful to his word."
What are you afraid of? Don't let devil mess you up. Devil is a liar, you are not going to die of this sickness, regardless of how many people have died as a result. The fact that someone very close to you died does not mean you are the next to die. You will be gloriously married, don't listen to the lies of the devil. Dont ever get to any point in life that you allow fear to stop you from speaking boldly what the word of God says concerning you. Stop being afraid of accidents, you will not be a victim of accident.
When all those evil thought come to your mind, just speak out the word of God boldly as related to the situation, prevailing circumstances notwithstanding. 2 Timothy 1:7. There is no way you can benefit from what you dont understand. You need to understand the word of God as it relate to your circumstances and hold on to it with tenacity of bull dog. Dont be carried away with simplicity of it, it works like fire!