08/03/2026
As I laid your big siblings down for bed tonight, I gave them each a hug and a kiss, laid out their first-day-of-school outfits, and set their book bags by the door. Through every part of it, I had the heaviest weight on my chest,the feeling that something was missing.
There should be four book bags, four pairs of shoes, four outfits, four sets of bedtime hugs and kisses, and four excited kiddos ready for the first day of school.
Your daddy and I have sat together all night talking about what should have been. Even though it hurts more than words could ever describe, we sat on the couch and ate your favorite boiled peanuts.
I can’t explain how badly I want our life back. It’s bittersweet knowing you’re in Heaven, living a life more beautiful than I could ever imagine, but that doesn’t make living without you here any easier.
Mommy loves you forever, Gavin Reid. 💙💚