04/22/2025
Nar-anon
Last night I attended my Nar-anon family 12-step group. I've been in "recovery" now for 5 years and 4 months.
No, I was not the addict in this case, but people close to me had addictions to narcotics, and still struggling.
I was sick!
I enabled them to continue using.
I believed their lies without knowing it.
I allowed them to manipulate me.
I was just as sick as them .
Last night we learned about detaching with love. One thing that stood out, is if my loved one wants to use, it's not my responsibility to try and stop them or change them
I can try to install, but I can't make them choose a certain path. That's God's job.
And.... It does not have to emotionally affect me!
That's the big thing that Nar-anon has done for me!! It's taught me to take control of my emotions, and I love that.
My loved ones crap on me! I'm a punching bag for words, but through working my program and my Christian walk too, I know it's the drug (devil) who is talking out of their mouth, not my loved one. I have to separate the 2.
Unfortunately, that way of thinking doesn't allow me to ever have a close close relationship with them, but for their own healing, and mine, it's important to practice!
I'll keep working my program.
I give amends when I need to for the part I played and remain powerless over the addict.
Besides, it's not my life they are living, I have my hands full living my own life anyway! Why take on theirs?
Still thanking God
Signed,
12-stepper forever.