10/09/2026
29 years ago today was a day that would forever change the course of my life 27 years later. It’s the day I suffered by myself a miscarriage. I made no phone calls. I was scared. I was devastated. I didn’t know what to do. I felt so alone. I was alone. I don’t remember telling hardly anyone what I went through. I lost a baby. Yes, it was too tiny to catch. But I lost him. My heart ached so much! I asked the question, “Why?” Even though the night before a voice told me it was his time to go and that I would have the opportunity to raise him again and a girl would come to our home. It was still so hard! We had been trying for another child for a few years. Why did this happen?
Well after 29 years I know why and I’m grateful for what I learned from the experience. I learned empathy. I understood what it felt like to lose a baby from the womb. Without that experience my nonprofit organization would not exist. I would not have the empathy to understand the heartache and pain that mother’s of lost babies feel. Heavenly Father knew I needed to experience that so I could help others. It’s interesting that this month is Infant Loss Awareness Month. The Anniversary of my loss. I haven’t shared my story with too many people as it is a sacred as well as devastating experience. When I travel around to do events with my project, sometimes I share it when I feel the spirit guide me to share. I haven’t shared the whole story here. But know this. I saw my son about 3 years before this happened. It was through spiritual eyes that I saw him. I know what he looks like. I have felt his spirit so many times in my life so has my youngest daughter who was later born that he told me would come. Heavenly Father had a plan for me, a special purpose. It’s my project. It gets me through my darkest hours when I’m in so much pain that I feel like I can’t go on. Just knowing that I am HIS hands doing HIS work gives me great joy knowing that I can help so many women through such horrific pain and suffering in the loss of an Angel baby.
Michaun Torgersen
Founder
