09/30/2014
Oh. My. Heavens. Has it really been two years since we posted here?! Thank you to those of you following. It has been a wild life. Really. For a while, I stepped out of the "adoption world". It can be an overwhelming and emotionally difficult place to spend your time and energy, and I needed some time to refuel. During that time, I served in other ways. I even volunteered at a homeless shelter. But for the most part, I was healing and mending my own soul. However...once "refueled" it was not long before the voice of the Holy Ghost was whispering in my heart that I was not doing enough. That I was living too much for myself. I told my husband (YES, I REALLY DID GET MARRIED DURING THAT TIME! I know, can you believe it?! Someone agreed to marry this crazy woman who wants to open an orphan home in China! Crazy, I know, right?!) that I was feeling empty. That I needed to be serving more, and doing more for others. It is uncanny the way things happen. God has things so well orchestrated (and for our good, I might add), that if we but follow His promptings, we can accomplish all of the crazy dreams He places in our hearts. Suddenly, I was head first in the adoption world again. My heart broken again for the orphans. My arms aching to hold the children waiting in China. No, I have not opened Sixteen Small Stones' Foster Home. In fact, that feels sometimes farther away now than it did in those early years of dreaming it up! But I know that one step at a time He will guide me on the path I cannot see. In the meantime, I am learning to live in this world again. I have had the opportunity to find out about kids available for adoption, and right now I am finding a lot of joy and fulfillment in simply advocating for them via facebook. It's a little thing, I know. But it is what I can do right now. Besides, if there is one thing I have learned, the surprisingly small acts can sometimes bring about the surprisingly important events. :) I hope and pray that some day the children for whom I advocate will find their forever families :) I cannot end this post without mentioning one child in particular who stole away my heart. A sweet little girl found her way deep, deep in to my heart. I wanted to bring her home to my arms, but God has other plans for this little treasure. Her name was removed from the list provided to the adoption agency I know, and I may never know what happens to my little love. My heart aches for her, and to know she is "lost" to me. However, she is not lost to the One who made her. God holds her in the palm of His hand. He sits as a refiner of silver, His eyes never leaving her. She is not lost to her Heavenly Father who loves her. Anyway. So, look forward to posts from me about some DARLING little munchkins who are looking for their forever families ;)
