10/19/2023
Hi all! Checking in after a nice long weekend away with friends/ family on our 2nd annual pizza crawl. We spent 4 days crawling through New Jersey and Connecticut to 12 different amazing pizza joints. My husband planned an awesome trip with some of the highest rated pizzerias in the country and we all ate WAY too much pizza!
Upon our return, we were all tired, sore, and a few pounds heavier lol. I'm normally pretty worn out after a trip like this where it's early mornings and go go go all day into the late evening. This was no exception.
These days I'm more worn down than normal though. All the walking and sitting is hard with my neuropathy. So the flight, although as short as could be, was hard. My ankles and feet were swollen and it made me so uncomfortable. Walking through the airport wasn't a good idea, but I wanted to keep up with my friends and not be the one in a wheelchair. I also opted to leave my scooter at home because the weather was supposed to be rainy and I didn't think I'd use it much. I definitely would have, and should have. I'm paying for overdoing it this week. Big time!
Since chemo, every morning I wake up with a body that frustrates me. I hate being a burden to my family and not having my independence. I'm trying so hard get back to my normal, but I'm still a long ways away. In some aspects, I will never get my life before cancer back and that's even more frustrating, but also a blessing if that makes sense.
It's like when my husband had his accident 2 years ago. Although he survived, praise God, he is not the same man he was 5 minutes before the crash. It changed him physically, mentally, and spiritually. He's a better man because of the trauma he endured. It sounds awful to say, but sometimes you need to be brought to your knees to appreciate what God has given you. It's that second chance at life epiphany.
My diagnosis was a very scary time for my family, just as my husband's accident was. It has been another incredibly difficult year for us as a family. But hard times build strong character. And watching me struggle to get back to normal strengthens my family. Every step forward I take, teaches my kids that through God, prayer, and a stubbornness that can't quit, anything is figureoutable. We'll figure it out, one way or another and we'll lean on God and each other to get through it! Although my body may be fighting me every step of the way, I won't stop trying.