Ovarian Cancer Awareness and Support

10/06/2025

08/07/2024

Not a single day passes without thoughts of you, Caitlyn. I wonder where life would have taken you and what amazing things you would have achieved. Your absence has left a gaping hole in my heart, but your memory inspires others and my self, to keep pushing forward. Your laughter, hugs, and smile are deeply missed, but I find solace in the impact you've had on everyone’s life. You will forever be remembered and loved, my dear baby girl. And I am so grateful to have had a daughter like you! Love always Dad

08/18/2023

I miss you so much. Words simply can’t explain the pain and the sadness with you being gone. I think about you everyday, I don’t want to forget the sound of your voice, the memories we had together. As a father I never wanted or expected this kind of thing to happen. It wasn’t supposed to be like this for you. Your dreams and your goals were set and sadly you never got to see them come true for you. You passed away before graduation, but the schools still graduated you and you are a high school graduate hearing them call your name that day so many emotions so hard to explain, so many people cheered for you not a quiet person when your name was announced. Even though you weren’t able to be present didn’t make me a less proud dad emotional dad. Caitlyn you are and always will be the best thing, person that had ever happened to me. I was always proud of you even when you thought I wasn’t oh by
I was so very proud of you. Nothing you could have ever done or even said could make me not be proud and love you. As a parent that’s how it should and is supposed to be. As I sit here today the anniversary of your passing I’m full of emotion some not so good as yes I feel more cold have been done by the ones who call them selfs Dr’s and I still feel a tons of guilt and feel like I’m someway I am just as if not more responsible for your passing. I feel like I should have came down on everyone with an iron fist to make them listen but others involved didn’t see it the way I did. Signing that DNR this very day 4 yrs ago is still a painstaking hurtful and hate towards me feeling. I don’t know and never will know if it was the right decision I question it daily sadly all the what ifs and second guessing isn’t going to bring you back. If only had that power you would already be here but not fighting for your life. I would have gladly took your place if I could have just so you would have another day month week or even years to fulfill your dreams and accomplish your goals. In the last years of your life you my dear daughter teaches me more than I think I taught you. You made me look at things differently than before, I hate that you passed away and every day since has been just as miserable and painful as the day you went away life sucks without you as everyday passes I am always seeing things or even smelling things that reminds me of you sunflowers, are the most abundant thing I see and I like to think when I see them maybe it is you saying hi to me I smell the body wash you used but no one is around that I could smell it on it’s almost like your right there but when I look no one is around so I don’t know how I smell it but I do every time I see a llama I think of you and how you loved them or when I randomly see a Harry Potter thing in the oddest of place sometimes just make me wonder if you don’t have something to do with it I love you Caitlyn I always will you were my one and only child and I miss you oh so much and the memories of you although I cherish them sometimes I can’t help but breakdown and cry fly high beautiful girl daddy misses you like no one knows .