05/08/2023
Some days, I am able to push down the PTSD I struggle with & post happy posts full of PUPPIES & PARTIES & then there are the days when a new mass shooting triggers a deep emotional breakdown where I take on the sadness as if each victim was my own loved one lost…
Some days I am able to push past the pain I have of living in fear for my life every time I leave my house. My brain decides against everything I try to do to overcome this nightmare of triggered memories after these daily mass shootings. My very real and deep repetitive thoughts that go on in my brain & into every cell of my body is that I live in a dangerous world filled with evil/crazy killers all around me planning their next war zone of death in schools, parks, medical buildings, places of work, churches, malls, movie theaters, parades, parks, grocery stores, banks, homes or concerts like where I was because THAT IS WHAT’s HAPPENING. I am forced to relive it almost daily.
I am terrified that I will go through another horrific mass shooting, or that my loved ones will go through what I did 6 years ago. I feel guilty if I don’t feel their pain…that is what PTSD does to me, because I survived through the mass shooting I was in, when so many others died…I have a responsibility to CARE as if each new death is someone I knew & loved😭💔
I don’t have the ability, like most people, to just pretend that none of this is happening, or worse yet to ignore the pain of others, to normalize this & just do nothing. I am scared, I am mad that nothing & nobody is stopping this, I am beside myself in grief for our Nation & for our world.
My heart is absolutely broken into a million pieces to learn about yet another mass shooting - these people where shopping, they were somebody’s baby, somebody’s mom, dad, sister, brother, spouse, uncle, aunt, coworker, friend…they were somebody’s loved one. HOW CAN ANYONE IGNORE WHAT IS HAPPENING TO OUR WORLD 😭💔 ~
How can we have crazy evil monsters with weapons randomly killing people almost daily?!?!?!? What happened to our world that this is a thing we must fear everywhere we go 😭😭😭
My heart & soul goes out to all those lives impacted by this horrific tragedy as precious innocent families were murdered while they were enjoying their lives shopping at a mall.
To all those that tragically find themselves in the same hell of surviving through a mass shooting, what is helping me through the darkest parts is the support of loved ones, therapy and reaching out to others who have been through the same thing…and thank God for PUPPIES & PARTIES or I don’t know how I could get through this.
I am here for anyone who needs help through this
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