08/10/2026
This is so true! It will be 6 years November 1, 2026! I do have peace and it still does affect me but I recognize how now!
I am beginning to want parts of the life back I let go before this happened! Parts I couldn’t face with what I was going through! I want back what was stolen from me because of grief! I want a full life, I want to remember the good memories before addiction took Michael’s life!
That’s where I am today!
I can feel the healing and it has everything to do with God! I reached out to Him daily and He answered me day by day and He still is! I am in a good place! Is it gone, no and it is part of my life now, I accept that! I can go forward and build my life back! God is so good!!
Love, Michael’s mama
From another mother:
Six years…
I once thought grief would always feel as raw as the day I lost my son. And while the love and longing have never left me, somehow, over time, something else has found its way into my heart….peace.
Is it God? Is it my son? Maybe it’s both. I don’t really know.
What I do know is that six years later, I am not moving on without him. I am moving forward with him, just in an entirely different way.
He is still part of me. Still in my heart, my thoughts, my life and my soul. The grief is still there, but it no longer comes alone. Now, somehow, there is peace beside it.
Perhaps that is God’s grace, teaching my heart how to carry both an everlasting love and an unbearable loss.
Thank you, dear Lord, for carrying me when I could not carry myself, and for giving my heart peace without ever asking it to let go 🙏
Written by Sue Loizou
In loving memory of my son Paul, forever 26, forever loved, forever with me💔🕊️
