Eric Marsh Foundation

05/27/2026

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05/26/2026

So often, the eye of the storm is where our peace is found

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05/24/2026

So much hard, sad energy was brought up from the depths over the last two weeks. There has been so much to wade through, new loss to mourn and move through, heavy feelings to feel, and wounds that felt old and calloused were opened up and became new again.

But in all of that the “docuseries/documentary” has been exposed. The ongoing lack of concern for the majority of 19 families, our survivor, and Prescott Fire Dept which have not been notified is astounding. And we know who’s who in the zoo.

The outpouring of love from all of you has been INCREDIBLE. I think so many of you needed a space for all your thoughts, feelings, and sorrow to get some oxygen and sunlight.

I needed the toxic and scary behavior that’s been leveled at me since the boys died to get sunlight, too. I’ve been carrying that around in the darkest parts of me for a long time.

And we got to talk about the kids which is one of the hardest and most important elements of all of this. It’s one of the most pure and raw layer(s) of this tragedy.

Self-care in these last few weeks has been waining. But I did level up my deadlifts to 170 lbs.

EMF has remained consistent and steady with our outgoing donations to survivor families and catastrophically injured firefighters- that’s a huge win 💚
Have a great holiday weekend and thank YOU for everything!

05/22/2026

Given the climate and everything going on, we feel it is so important to talk about raising Granite Mountain Hotshot kids whose fathers fell nearly 13 years ago and the importance and value that we MUST place on the children as they begin navigating their loss at this stage of their development.

Hear from 3 of our widows directly on what it feels like to have this in-production “documentary/docuseries” fall from the sky without so many of our families and next-of-kin, our survivor, and Prescott Fire Dept having been notified, invited to share, or collaborate.

We invite you to have a listen and share 💚19+1

Podcast Episode · Smoked Meat · May 22 · 38m

05/20/2026

The last few days I’ve been sorting all of this out in my head and my heart. I have found out some deeply disturbing and very hurtful things. I’ve had to mourn some relationships. It’s been very painful and also eye opening.

I have always known they believe I have Eric’s cell phone and that they believe the cell phone holds answers. Eric had an old flip phone that was fully melted. It was placed in my hand early on and it was so triggering for me that I immediately threw it away.

Now I have come to find out that they believe I have been hiding a radio transmission. I have no idea what the radio transmission is or what they think it is and I absolutely would not keep anything from my fellow families. I am not capable of that.

I have nothing and I know nothing more than what our families have or know.

The way we “save firefighter lives” is not by coming after people (dead or alive), it’s by understanding and fixing broken systems. The people involved with this docuseries/documentary have always come at people (including me). Yarnell Hill Fire = broken systems- I have never denied that.

Identify and fix the broken systems.

And yes, I absolutely believe that an unforeseen weather event changed the course of the fire and trapped the crew. And no I do not believe in conspiracies surrounding Yarnell.

This is a very tragic, awful accident that has deeply affected the lives of so many of us. I am sad that we have to keep reliving and rehashing- it causes massive trauma and it absolutely doesn’t help the families move forward with peace.

I’m using this photo because it represents the harsh reality that we face everyday. They were burned over. Our loved ones were burned over in a wildfire. I had to ground myself in that awful truth years ago. I had to really understand what that meant.

I love our crew and I love all our families.

05/18/2026

Thank you everyone 💚

05/17/2026

Maybe it’s time to revisit all the bad stuff done to me and Eric by the conspiracy theorists-

They likened Eric to a serial killer who ate her victims.

They followed my now husband and found out the drop off location for my step-kids and doxed the location online.

Without considering what happens to a body when it’s heated to the extreme temperatures their bodies went thru, they published stuff online stating the boys were drunk when they died. And now a bunch of people believe my sober husband was drunk- which is insane and absolutely without merit or science. And they know that. Eric wouldn’t even use cough syrup when he was sick.

They leaked the autopsy reports before the families had a chance to read them. Forcing me to read all 19 autopsy reports way, way before I was ready. If I was ever ready.

They threatened my now husband with violence causing us to have to get police involved.

They started a website just for me and Eric and used a photo my mom took of us at a family Christmas and blacked our eyes out.

They sat behind Eric’s parents on a van going to the staff ride and said the most God awful stuff about Eric so his parents could hear them. That left a deep bite on 2 humans who never deserved that.

They used to pop into random class rooms at our wildfire academy and spout off conspiracy theories- leaving alumni who were taking classes in tears.

I had to get an order of protection and start carrying because I feared for my safety.

This is just a few of the many, many awful things done to us.

This is why I am so protective of the boys and of myself. These are the people the producer of the documentary is connected to. The ring leader and the producer own property together.

So much of the last 13 years has just been recovering from trauma- let alone grief.

Our families are strongest together- and they know that. So they are ripping us apart.

And dang it if it’s not just the saddest, worst stuff.

So I’m much different than I used to be. And I use this NPO to be useful to the Wildland fire service because with all the bad stuff I need good in my life and I need my hands in the good work.

I need to see miracles and I need to help people who are struggling.

I am not perfect. I am human.

And 13 years later we should not be going through all this again. Reliving the most painful stuff.

If you scroll through the comment section of the 5 posts I have most recently made you will see how crazy people are.

And you will also see how amazing people are. The support has been incredible.

Thank you to everyone who supports us who lives in compassion and logic. That’s also where I live.

05/17/2026

This is our smoking gun ❤️

A report on what made the 2013 Yarnell Hill Fire so dangerous. 19 Wildland Firefighters lost their lives that day battling the blaze.

05/15/2026

We hate this photo- it marks the very first time the Granite Mountain Hotshots were exploited. I have never used it but it feels fitting to use it today because our crew, our guys are being exploited again.

Exploited for a “project” most of our families were not invited to participate in nor consult for. The producer never invited us. The documentary is in “production” and he never invited us. Nor has he spoken to Brendan, 99% of crew alumni, or the Prescott Fire Department.

He is absolutely deeply connected to a man who has stopped at nothing to relentlessly tear down the legacy of the Granite Mountain Hotshots. A man who has said and written the absolute worst stuff about Eric and Jesse. He even owns property with this unconscionable human in Yarnell- a property that borders the deployment site.

And now the producer is calling me out by name on his social media. Because he’s mad that I’m fighting him. He’s mad that I dare have an opinion and feelings as the widow of one of the dead men under one of the American flags pictured above.

How dare I call him out!

How dare I demand that every family of every Granite Mountain Hotshot be given the dignity to weigh in on any documentary or movie or book?

This film does not include most of the families of our precious 19 angels, does not include Brendan, nor the Prescott Fire Department.

And please- don’t come at me saying he has spoken to most of the families because he has not. He has absolutely not. And do not come at me defending him because he’s your friend and you like him. As Eric’s next of kin- I don’t have good experiences and that should send alarm bells through the fire/Wildland fire service and every single person who supports us.

I only found out about this movie because someone I know saw his post about it on Instagram. And most of the families, Brendan and Prescott Fire only know about it because I told them.

05/15/2026

Eric and the Granite Mountain Hotshots and the Yarnell Hill Fire are the lens through which I see everything. Absolutely everything. There is nothing about my life- every decision, every moment, EVERYTHING- that is not filtered through the Granite Mountain Hotshots and my HORRIFIC loss. It has impacted EVERYTHING.

And people on the outside CANNOT understand what it actually means to live this way. And there is absolutely no way to travel through life in any other way- that option is not available for me. Because the loss has changed every piece of my life and who I am.

So when someone like this documentary film guy comes crashing into our lives and has made no effort to contact so many families or the Prescott Fire Dept, and his buddies are bulldozing their way coming to argue over so many things I KNOW they’re wrong about because I LIVE THIS LIFE and I know all the people who have real skin in the game- it’s mind boggling that instead of understanding and having compassion they choose to fight with me- the next-of-kin of Eric Marsh.

It shows true colors and it shows a lack of humanity. It shows a failure in themselves to be able to connect on even the slightest level of empathy for what so many of us are dealing with every moment of every day.

And anyone who still supports him or his “documentary” even though they know how many of us family members were never contacted, that Prescott Fire Dept was never contacted- that his way is to find abstract people slightly connected to our loss who feel desperate to have some shine off the tragedy is low ball and dirty and just plain pathetic.

Anyone involved in the production, the people I know who are part of the production who were so thoughtless as to keep me in the dark, who had zero interest in bringing in families or the Prescott Fire Dept, anyone who supports any part of the production in anyway who are not thoroughly disgusted, who cannot see in hindsight the grave damage they have caused- I cannot understand any piece of any kind of rational they need to move forward with this “project”.

Thank you to all of you who see us and love us. Your humanity is aces high.

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