05/06/2023
Through it all I'm blessed! Things could be way worse, but I serve an awesome God! He never fails me.. but he definitely test me. The Doctor says there's no oxygen getting to one part of my heart although my last test came back good.. I've been telling ppl ohhh it's just from heart break. In fact it could be! But I'll say this.. if it is ?! It's definitely not from a heart break from a man!! I feel it's more of a heart break from loosing my daughter.. when Sierra Lashae died I felt like part of if not my whole heart died with her.. and now I know that to be true! I love and miss her dearly and no matter how hard I try to suppress those emotions my heart reminds me of the in depth feelings I had at the lost of my child, my first born, my only daughter, my first true love. . And with that scar on my heart there's no way I'll ever completely heal.. but i know my God will definitely keep me in comfort when the pain submerges.. Thank you lord in advance for being here!
