03/02/2020
Those of you who truly know me are aware that God has blessed me with many gifts. He has uniquely designed me with abilities that most of my life left me filling lost, confused and very uncomfortable in my skin. Not understanding why i was designed the way i am, i always felt out of place everywhere i went. I felt worthless existing without a purpose.. My gifts allowed me to skate through life appearing as if i had it all together. On the outside i appeared to happy, content, focused with a well planned sense of direction. But in reality i was was lost, confused, with no idea and in fear of what life held for me. It wasn't until i came to face with self, no longer camouflaged, unable to hide behind my false sense of self worthlessness,, wanting so desperately to not just appear confident but to truly be comfortable in my skin God saw fit to allow me to go through some things, stripping of all the superficial thing i hid behind, was i able to get to know self, learn my true self worth, based on the power and energy the dwell deep in my core and how all those gifts, fueled with that energy was part of my unique design, painting a clear picture of God's purpose for my life. The day i realized my true purpose designed and appointed by God, was i able to embrace those gifts and for the first time in my life i felt comfortable in the skin God put me in. I am so grateful to God for allowing me to grow through my struggles. Today I know the the gifts God blessed me with should be used to be a blessing to his name through my actions.