Sacred Acres Ministries

10/21/2024

How does a Severe Panic Disorder feel like you ask?

Yesterday, I did some work outside getting ready for our upcoming hog roast.

Nothing too major...weed whacking, lopping some shrubbery and vines, raking, and wire brushing and cleaning on the smoker.

Not a problem...kinda painful with the Chronic Lymes Disease I also deal with that mostly affects my shoulders - but anyways...

This morning, as we all know after a workout or extra physical excursion...the body will be feeling it. Extra sore, pangs all over my shoulders, middle back, even in my chest (pecks), stomach etc.

To normal people this'll be like - well crap... that was a work out yesterday and I'm feeling it for sure today!

For me...I have to keep reminding myself that I'm not having a heart attack, blood clots aren't happening in my lungs, and cancer is not developing in my breasts or back. Every - single - twinge that happens, brings my brain up to a panic. I have to actually keep reminding myself....come on - Leisa, you know it was from yesterday and all the work you did (which I don't feel like it was much)... just more than my normal lately because of all the chronic pain I live with.

Panic literally makes you think you're dying...your brain automatically goes for the worse possible scenario. Better call the squad cause here I come Elizabeth kind-of-thing.

I can't help it, I can't control it, sobbing insues, I feel like a puddle of mess....then I remember to tell myself that I'm OK and I'm not dying. Even tho I know where I go when I die - my brain freaks the heck out and it takes an incredible amount of focus to get and keep myself together.

I don't have time for this....we got a hog to roast!!!

Be kind to those around you cause you don't REALLY know what each other is dealing with!!!

03/07/2022

Attention all my friends and all my friend's friends!!!

This coming Friday (03-11-22) we have a fundraiser occurring that anyone can participate in - from anywhere - that is close to a Panda Express!!

Order anything online through the Panda Express App and make sure you put this code in! 906232. This helps Healing Our Warriors by receiving 28% of what you spend! Go to the App first before doing any delivery option or we don't receive the donation!

If you've never ate at Panda Express...I recommend the Orange Chicken!!!

HealingOurWarriors.org

Raise money for Healing Our Warriors

02/26/2022

People ask...what do you do at Healing Our Warriors? Well...it's really complicated to put what we do on paper or explain fully in a website.

We help people help themselves by explaining where some of our ways of thinking come from and how to simply change our perspectives to a new way of BE-ing. Simply discovering who we really are - underneath the pain and shame that life has thrown at us causing us to hide behind masks and walls!

We do this in a one FULL day - incorporating music, art, games, and horses! We feed you lunch and dinner... and we do it all for FREE because we understand it best - having been through a lot of it ourselves!

If you, or someone you know, is struggling with Anxiety, Panic, Depression, PTS(D), Excessive Stress, and/or Suicidal Ideation (thoughts) and you don't know what to do about it... let us show you H.O.W. (Healing Our Warriors)

This is open to active Military, Veterans, First Responders, Family/Friends of any of those, AND anyone that finds themselves struggling!!

We can help... because we understand! Peer-led and trauma informed. You never have to do this alone!!!

We have openings as soon as April 23rd!

Apply now at

02/25/2022

Our next open Healing Our Warriors Mission is coming up April 23rd! This will be an All Female Mission. If you are interested in attending or know someone who is... please get on the website and apply. I'm making phone calls now to fill up the next few. If this one doesn't fit in your schedule...we are currently holding them once a month.

Have questions? Please don't hesitate to call!

03/31/2021

A good Sunrise is always healing! Reminder of a new beginning. A new start. A freshness. Life can definitely have its ups and downs. No one is immune from struggle, pain, or heartache. Sometimes it feels like we're the only ones that suffer... but we're not.

You never have to feel alone! Because you're not. There are others of us who understand. Who've been there. Who get it. Who knows!

Breathe my friend and just keep moving forward even if it's only an inch a day. THAT'S progress. I'm here with you. Standing a little before you to coax you forward. Standing a little behind you to push a little if needed. Standing above you to pick you up. Standing beneath you to lift you. But always beside you to reaasure you that you are NOT alone!

I love you! It's going to be a GREAT day!!!

02/17/2021

Today they are supposed to meet to determine whether my Temporary Occupational Disability becomes permanent or they kick me to the curb which will mean no income. Scott will be losing his job soon as well because they are closing their shop down. Prayers appreciated.

04/02/2020

Sharing from a friend:

Me: Okay, God, here's the thing. I'm scared. I'm trying not to be, but I am.

God: I know. Want to talk about it?

Me: Do we need to? I mean, you already know.

God: Let's talk about it anyway... We've done this before.

Me: I know, I just feel like I should be bigger or stronger of something by now.

God: *waiting patiently, unhurried, undistracted, never annoyed.

Me: Okay. So, I'm afraid I'll do everything I can to protect my family and it won't be enough. I'm afraid of someone I love dying. I'm afraid the world won't go back to what it was before. I'm afraid my life is always going to feel a little bit unsettled.

God: Anything else?

Me: EVERYTHING ELSE.

God: Remember how your son woke up the other night and came running down the hall to your bedroom?

Me: Yes.

God: You were still awake, so when you heard him running, you started calling out to him before he even got to you... remember? Do you remember what you called out to him?

Me: I said, "You're okay! You're okay! You're okay! I'm here."

God: Why did you call to him? Why didn't you just wait for him to get to your room?

Me: Because I wanted him to know that I was awake, and I heard him, and he didn't have to be afraid until he reached the end of the dark hallway.

God: Exactly. I hear you, my child. I hear your thoughts racing like feet down the dark hallway. There's another side to all of this. I'm there already. I've seen the end of it. And I want you to know right here as you walk through it all, you're okay. I haven't gone to sleep, and I won't.

Me: *crying. Can we sit together awhile? Can we just sit here a minute before I go back to facing it all?

God: There's nothing I'd love more.

03/21/2020

I sometimes feel sad. I sometimes feel alone. I sometimes feel upset. I sometimes feel unworthy. I sometimes don't even like myself.

But I also sometimes feel blessed. And sometimes I feel loved. And sometimes I feel happy. And sometimes I feel like I'm valuable! And sometimes I can actually stand to be in the same room with myself.

Parts of me are broken. PTS/PTSD, Depression, Chronic Lyme's Disease, Fibromyalgia, Terrible Migraines, Severe Panic Disorder, not so great of a housekeeper, Sometimes overly emotional, I love food a little too much, and I suck at taking care of myself the way I want to - and know I should.

But parts of me are whole. I'm a great encourager, I give good advice, I'm a fabulous listener, I have a huge heart, I'm very compassionate, I can be pretty funny, I am reasonably intelligent, I'm loyal I'm an animal lover, I'm an artist and I can sing well. I'm a writer and a poet. I love children and am available for in-depth conversations most any time day or night!

A lot of times we concentrate and/or focus on the broken things so much that we forget or fail to see all the good that we are and that we can offer others.

I often tell people that are hurting and feeling broken - about the Japanese Art form of Kintsugi. Taking broken or cracked pottery and filling it in or putting pieces back together with precious metals...oftentimes gold. This not only makes the vessel usable again...but increases the value of it!

So when you realize that parts of you are broken or cracked...remember that those cracks or holes have been, or are being mending with something that makes you more valuable. If we focus on those more valuable aspects of ourselves...I believe our perspective on our whole being will ultimately change.

When you find a crack or chunk missing... meditate, give to those in need (donate), love-on others (serve), complete S.M.A.R.T. goals, stay connected, and most importantly...love yourself fiercely! I know this can be difficult...but you are valuable! No matter how many things you struggle with. No matter how broken you think you are. No matter how much you don't like yourself and think no one else likes you either. You are enough! You are worthy! You are amazing! You are precious! You are awesome! And I love you exactly how you are! Rise-up and become who you are capable of being! I believe in YOU!!!

02/07/2020

It's a snowy morning here and it reminds me as I was driving - that people are always in such a hurry. Allowing life to pass by at such a rate of speed... that they often miss the amazing things right in from of them that could actually bring joy and hope into their minds and hearts.

Even at the risk of causing or being in an accident - doesn't slow people down even a little because everyone is always in such a huge hurry!

Why do we rush around, procrastinate, fill our days too full, and even ignore our own safety and care sometimes?

We live in such a beautiful world. We cover it with chaos way too much! Others are also to blame... but we can only hold responsibility for our own side of the Street...our little corner of the world.

If we would allow ourselves even just a few precious moments to stop and see what is around us...maybe... just maybe - we will learn to embrace the amazing parts of the world around us that helps bring a precious light into our own personal world that can seem, at times, very dark!

Life can be difficult sometimes. Often very difficult. But there IS hope! Look for the glimpses of that hope in the subtle things. Even the snow covered trees outside your window.

What brings YOU joy and/or hope?