Aiwass Journal

09/19/2026

"One may even state for that true success in all Magic a thorough grounding in Yoga technique is an absolute essential."
~ Israel Regardie

09/17/2026

"Mysticism —Magic and Yoga— is the means, therefore, to a new universal life, richer, greater and more full of resource than ever before, as free as sunlight, as gracious as the unfolding of a rose. It is for man (and woman) to take."
~ Israel Regardie

"Mysticism —Magic and Yoga— is the means, therefore, to a new universal life, richer, greater and more full of resource than ever before, as free as sunlight, as gracious as the unfolding of a rose. It is for man (and woman) to take."
~ Israel Regardie

09/14/2026

Israel Regardie

Israel Regardie (November 17, 1907 – March 10, 1985) was an English occultist, ceremonial magician, and writer. He served as Aleister Crowley's secretary for a year, 1928-29.

09/13/2026

Jalāl ad-Dīn Muhammad Rūmī was a 13th-century Persian poet, faqih, Islamic scholar, theologian, and Sufi mystic.

09/12/2026

We often judge people by what they show us: anger, control, perfectionism, silence, jealousy, overthinking. But sometimes a difficult behavior is not the whole story. It may be a protection built around an older wound, fear, or unmet need.

1. Aggression can hide unprocessed pain. Anger is sometimes easier to express than hurt.

2. Control can hide fear of uncertainty. When life feels unsafe, controlling everything can feel like protection.

3. Perfectionism can hide the belief that being imperfect makes us unworthy.

4. Indifference can hide the fear of caring deeply and getting hurt.

5. Sarcasm can hide discomfort with vulnerability. Humor becomes a shield against emotional exposure.

6. People-pleasing can hide the fear of rejection. Saying yes to everyone can become a way of seeking safety.

7. Hyper-independence can hide the fear of depending on others and being disappointed.

8. Arrogance can hide fragile self-worth. Sometimes superiority is compensation for feeling inadequate.

9. Defensiveness can hide difficulty facing shame. Protecting the ego can feel safer than admitting mistakes.

10. Overthinking can hide fear of uncertainty. The mind keeps searching for answers because it struggles to accept “I don't know.”

11. Hypervigilance can hide an expectation of danger. Even peace can feel unsafe when you've learned to always be prepared.

12. Judgment can hide parts of ourselves we have rejected. What strongly triggers us may sometimes deserve deeper reflection.

13. Overproductivity can hide the belief that rest makes us worthless. Achievement becomes proof that we matter.

14. Emotional detachment can hide overwhelm. Sometimes numbness is the mind's way of surviving what feels too much.

15. Jealousy can hide the fear of not being enough. Comparison often grows from insecurity, not hatred.

16. Possessiveness can hide the fear of abandonment. Holding tighter cannot guarantee that someone will stay.

17. Rigidity can hide difficulty trusting the unknown. Familiar discomfort can feel safer than unfamiliar freedom.

18. Avoidance can hide fear of discomfort. What we keep escaping often remains powerful over us.

19. Constant helping can hide difficulty receiving care. Giving can feel safer than allowing ourselves to need someone.

20. Intellectualization can hide feelings we don't yet know how to face. Understanding an emotion is not always the same as feeling it.

21. Oversharing can hide a longing to finally be seen and understood. Sometimes we tell too much because we have been unseen for too long.

These are not excuses for harmful behavior, and not every behavior has the same root. But looking beneath the surface can replace judgment with understanding.

Sometimes healing begins when we stop asking, “What's wrong with me?” and gently ask, “What am I protecting myself from?”

09/09/2026

All of the best things in life require a degree of embarrassment, or at least the possibility of it. Dancing, singing, sharing art, cooking food, having s*x, holding hands; there is risk in it all. You could burn dinner or sing off key; no act of self expression or love is exempt from this danger. Embarrassment is scary because rejection is scary, failing is scary, judgment is scary and we have learned to equate all of these experiences to something bad. Because of this, we all too often find ourselves feigning apathy to avoid embarrassment: what you don’t care about can’t hurt you, right?

To some degree, that is very true. The only way to live a life without embarrassment is to simply not care about your actions or how others perceive them, to always have your guard up and play your cards close to your chest. A life that sounds, frankly, terrible. Being cool and disinterested and unaffected by the world is a bleak existence, like living near a river that you never swim in. "

When I try to think of the last time that I truly embarrassed myself, I want to point to something silly, like a few weeks ago when, while grabbing a coffee in a small, crowded shop, I sat down in a broken chair and experienced the first Honest-to-God, Ass-Over-Teakettle fall that I have had in prob...

09/07/2026

The legendary cellist Pablo Casals was asked why he continued to practice at age 90. 'Because I think I'm making progress.' he replied.

09/05/2026

I am the secret Serpent coiled about to spring: in my coiling there is joy. If I lift up my head, I and my Nuit are one. If I droop down mine head, and shoot forth venom, then is rapture of the earth, and I and the earth are one.
Liber AL, 2:26

https://www.thelema.org/aa/documents/the_book_of_the_law/chapter_2.html

09/04/2026

I didn’t choose when I arrived, where I arrived, what body I arrived in, or who was standing around the crib when I got here. None of us did. We were dropped into a family, a country, a religion, a class, a race, a neighborhood, a particular moment in history, and before we could even hold our own heads up, people started explaining the world to us. This is God. These are our people. Those are not. This is what girls do. This is what boys do. This is success. This is shameful. This is normal. This is what people like us believe.

And because we were children, we believed them. What else were we supposed to do?

Had I been born five thousand miles away, much of what I once considered obvious might have seemed ridiculous. Had I been born a hundred years earlier, I might have spent my whole life obeying rules I now consider absurd. Had I been born into another family, another economic class, another religion, another body, another country, I might be defending beliefs today that I currently cannot understand anyone defending.

That realization can knock a little arrogance out of you, because suddenly so much of what people are proud of turns out to be something they had absolutely nothing to do with. You didn’t earn your birthplace or your native language. You didn’t earn the passport you were handed, the family money, or the genes. You didn’t even earn the first version of your morality. Somebody gave it to you.

But eventually, if you live long enough and pay attention, something interesting happens. You get a chance to look at the pile.

All this stuff you were handed. Some beautiful. Some useful. Some complete bu****it.

And then, finally, the responsibility becomes yours.
That may be the real work of becoming a person.

We’re all just accidents of our birth.