My Journey with Cancer

04/30/2020

Today is the day I get to officially say "I'm cancer fu***ng FREE!" Five years of treatments, pokes, exams, tests, scans and I'm finally all fu***ng done!! ***ngwon **kyoucancer

01/08/2020

One of the hardest parts was not having my mom here. I hated how random people in the store would make comments. I hated everything about the diagnosis and treatment. I'm really hating the side effects from treatment. No one ever talks about life after cancer, just how to get through

01/02/2020

Happy New Year!! Time to make that dreaded yearly appointment! Mine is all set for April, when is yours?

09/04/2019

Things have been crazy around here the last year but here we are trying to make the best of it. Luckily my cancer has stayed at bay and I've made it 3 years without anymore treatment. The doctors are happy with that but unhappy that I can't gain any weight back and I seem to lose it super easy. I'll take my wins where I can. Here's to another year without treatment and another year closer to finally hearing "You're cancer free!" ***ngwinning

09/25/2018

Yesterday was kinda a check up day. I saw the dentist and menopause doc. Both were good! The oral hygienist loves cleaning my teeth cause I keep them super clean! And the dentist says I show NO signs of oral cancer!! Yay! Go me!!! My menopause doc is one of the best! 💛 She specializes in cancer induced menopause. She's really helped me get through it so far. She's happy with where I am emotionally and that I am off the antidepressant without any trouble. And lastly she's super happy that I'm weighing in at a solid 124 pounds!!! Go me!! **kyoucancer

09/07/2018

Three years ago was my turning point. Three years ago my entire life was turned upside down. Three years ago I started my final period that almost killed me. I knew something was off. I had been having a period every 2 weeks for about 2 months and this time something was very wrong. I started passing blood clots bigger than my fist and passing out. After a couple days I finally made the decision to go the ER. By the time I arrived in the ER, I had already lost over half my blood volume. I ended up having at least 4 blood transfusions just to get back to a semi normal level. I'm now anemic because of the blood loss. In the ER they said I had some neucrotic tissue that was causing the bleeding and I was going to have and emergency D&C with biopsy. I was discharged the next day, which happened to be my wedding anniversary, with an appointment for my biopsy results. I got my results the morning of September 11, 2015. The doc was super cold about it. She had some information she gave me and told me I would be having a hysterectomy and never have kids. She then said we could use the room as long as we needed then left. I don't really remember much except calling my sister, who was living in Alabama at the time, and crying to her. We had just lost our step dad the summer before and our mom was living with her. Telling my mom was the worst. She had already taken care of and lost one sick child, how was going to tell her I have cancer and could die? (I should note my brother had Cystic Fibrosis) Well dying wasn't an option then and it's still not now.
Three years later and I have 2 years clean under my belt. I'm at a healthy weight, my menopause is in check, for the most part my PTSD and anxiety are also in check. I still have a lot of neuropathy trouble but I'm making the best of things. As for the cancer, I'm still fighting it and telling it to f**k off, everyday. I'm patiently waiting 3 more years to get my "All clear."

06/08/2018

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05/26/2018

Sssoooo... It's been awhile since I've been on here. We've had a busy busy few months. Between softball, CF clinic visits, my own oncology check ups, school, work and just life it's been a crazy few months. I'm very happy to report that my CF child is doing well! She's as healthy as she can be!! We're not sure what this child is gonna do yet but I know she's ment for something awesome!! The oldest child just finished her first year of softball. She decided in January she wanted to play. Try outs were in February and she had never even caught a ball or swung a bat! So proud of her! Up next for her is drivers ed!! The baby turned 9 and is going on 19.... My little stinker.
As for me... I'm surviving. I'm making the best of things. I'm still figuring out what my body can still do and what I just have the will to do. Like skipping for instance. My CF child and I tried skipping one day and between the neuropathy in my legs flairing up and her breathing we only made it about 2 minutes. I still have days where I just don't feel good. And days where my mind still thinks I'm healthy and 22 but then my body reminds me "hey dumby your 34 and due to the menopause your body thinks it 70!" I wish they would've told me way back when that the side effects would last months to years to permanently. Even knowing the side effects I think I would've still done the treatments. Just for the simple fact of I didn't know about alternatives and I just wanted it gone so I could still be around for my girls and my momma.

01/25/2018

My symtoms were not normal by any means. I didn't have painful s*x. I still had normal periods, the last couple months it changed to every 2 weeks but at the time I was super stressed and my doc just said it was due to stress... It wasn't until I started passing huge masses of blood and passing out that I realized something was wrong. I never for a second thought they would say it was cancer. I was only 32! I hadn't even had my own kids yet! I was healthy, there was no way they were gonna tell me I had cancer! Lol joke was on me! There it was a 7cm tumor growing on my cervix and into my vaginal wall.... So you can have it and not have any symptoms!

11/09/2017

I have it all plus depression. No one tells you all the mental changes that happen with not only the diagnosis but the changes from treatment and post treatment. This is a part of cancer that isn't talked much about. I wish they had talked to me more about it. Especially knowing I had depression and PTSD prior to my diagnosis and treatment. I wouldn't say I have survivor's guilt as I don't feel guilty for surviving but I do feel horrible when I hear of other's going through what I went through or worse. It kills me inside when I hear someone has passed away from any kind of cancer. ***ngwinning **kyoucancer

Survivor's guilt and PTSD are two "invisible" struggles that this cancer survivor experienced in the aftermath of both her and her husband's battles with cancer. Read how she pushed herself through the pain and navigated her own survivorship.