The healing project Merced

02/21/2026

Nourish your body’s healing wisdom

02/07/2026

More love. ❤️

01/10/2026

Since this little break in our gatherings… I have learned the importance of deep reflection and pure understanding. It’s always been part of the curriculum…but like most things it takes time to stick.

Dis ease is a state of mind.

For example: I worked in a toxic environment for years and I would get “sick” a lot. I had this idea that if I wasn’t working then I was purpose-less. The stress was so bad that I would hurt myself, pains, flu/colds that would last way too long and exhaustion was daily. I developed the worst anxiety and depression. One day I started to bleed and the pain was excruciating (worse then labor) and I thought I would die as a young working class mom on our couch. There were bandaids perscribed that lead to Su*****L ideation. I felt like I was a real problem and needed to be silenced and so did everyone else. Birth control & paxil was supposed to be my saving grace, it just made everything worse! I ended up getting a full hysterectomy at just 38 years old. It was the best thing bc I didn’t have to go to work for 8 weeks, I took the extreme amount of time off. While I do not regret the hysterectomy, I do trust that it happened bc i wanted it to happen to get away from the toxic daily grind.

For years after i would say I wish I could work. My partner started to make enough that i could stay home.

I continued to try to work in new toxic environments, it was me working for women that treated me like trash, i got yelled at by women who were peers, more then my mom yelled at me. And I realized I was creating it over and over again! I needed to heal whatever this was within me attracting this to me.

The last few months I have learned this: I love being home, cleaning, cooking taking care of myself and my family. All my outside jobs consisted of cooking & cleaning another persons home or school. I would come home exhausted bc i was meant to cook and clean again!

I also plainly had to admit to my partner that I do not want to work outside the home I have no desire!

Long story short: I do not have to be injured, sick or tired to choose what I have chosen. I don’t have to say “I would work but…”

The truth is i dont want to work, i want to serve my community. And this changed everything. Clearing the path towards a new life. A new me.

Seeing how we lie to ourselves and those who love us, and the lie basically crushes us into sick depressed and anxious beings.

And we continue to wonder why.

Taking responsibility for what we are choosing is a great place to start and practicing spiritual hygiene.

What lies are you repeating?

Let’s begin a new day!

12/29/2025

Ordinary moments hold more comfort than we realize. A warm meal. A quiet morning. A familiar routine. These are not filler moments. They are the places where your nervous system exhales and your heart remembers it is safe.

There is a softness to the ordinary that often goes unnoticed because it does not demand attention. But these small, steady experiences are what ground you. They are what make life feel livable when everything else feels loud or uncertain.

You do not have to wait for something extraordinary to feel grateful. Peace often lives in what is already here, patiently offering itself again and again.

slowdown presence innerpeace

12/27/2025

Greetings fellow healers!

Well, we haven’t had a healing project in about 2 months.

Our family has been learning through trauma and pain.

We are at the point where we are seeing why these things happened and happen.

The progress is fast moving (8 of wands energy)

Clearing the pathway to growing in our efforts and meeting with community that also is focused on healing within and finding out what freedom feels like.

Thank you new followers for acknowledging that you want to see more of these meetings.

We are healing now and will be back at 2 monthly meetings.

Also check out wellness in Merced ca, on G street as my dear friend has opened her space for a grief group. It’s highly recommended that we do not go through grief alone, as it opens us to connection more then the idea that we have lost someone, no one is lost.

I hope you feel it too!

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The healing project Merced follow so you will be updated on when we will make a come back 🙂

12/22/2025

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11/08/2025

Step into the version of yourself that already exists in the quantum field.

10/11/2025

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10/07/2025

WHEN YOU LOSE YOUR MOTHER, YOUR WHOLE BODY GOES INTO SHOCK.

Because she was always there.
A constant.
A comfort.
Even from a distance, you could still reach her.
But now… the silence is unbearable.

1. The First Sound You Ever Knew Was Hers
Her heartbeat was your beginning.
That bond was built before you had words,
before you had memories—
a love woven into the start of your life.
Losing it feels like losing the ground beneath you.

2. You Never Stop Whispering to Her
Asking her to show up somehow.
Because she always knew when you needed her,
and now you need her more than ever.
But where is she?
Everyone else can just tap “Mom” on their phone.
You’re left clinging to feathers, sunsets, scents—
anything that feels like her presence.

3. The Ache of Her Absence Never Leaves
She was the one who could make sorrows lighter,
who could make you feel safe again.
Without her, you’re a lost child,
searching, longing, wishing for her voice,
her advice, her laughter, her stories.

4. Grief Becomes a Mirror
One day, you see her in your own reflection.
A smile. A gesture. A laugh.
Little pieces of her stitched into who you are.
And you realize—
you carry her forward,
even in your ache.

Final Word:
Grief never ends, because grief is just love that has nowhere to go.
It is the invisible thread that still ties you together—
the bond between Heaven and Earth.
And though the pain is heavy,
it becomes an honor to grieve her.
Because your grief is proof of the love that will last the rest of your days.

From: Pastrychef