12/28/2024
āEveryone knew my situation. I took the bus to school. It was a fairly small bus, and all of us would talk. So the bus driver knew everything. She was an old lady, in her sixties. White hair. She heard me saying that I didnāt have money to go on my senior trip. So she parked the bus, went into to the deanās office, and said: āHereās $80, let the girl go on the trip.ā I had a science teacher, Ms. Bernard. She knew that we were homeless, so every once in awhile sheād pay me $20 to clean her classroom. Just so that I could do something for my birthday, or get myself pizza one night, stuff like that. Then our dean Ms. V would let me bring home extra food from the cafeteria, which wasnāt allowed. If it wasnāt for the educators in my life, Iād have gone off the rails, the way a lot of kids who have trouble at home do. I was just craving attention so much. My mom, I love her. But she's never been the best mental health wise, especially after everything she's gone through. I was also getting bullied, just relentlessly by kids in my class. I learned pretty quick that people paid attention to me academically, no other way. In high school my science teachers were really where it was at. Dr. Khan, especially. He was my marine biology teacher. It was my favorite class, because Iāve always loved marine biology. But we also talked about music a lot. That year everything was really up in the air for me: Iād just transferred schools, I was taking care of my little brother, our stepdad was domestically violent. That Christmas Dr. Khan gave me a present. Two presents, actually. The first present was cookies. He said: āI always talk to my wife about you, so she made you cookies.ā His wife baked things for a living, on the side. So these were like, real cookies. With sea salt on top. Then the second present was a CD with all the songs weād ever talked about, mixed-together with videos of all my favorite animals. I do not like dolphins. I love whales. And I genuinely have a thing for sharks. So thereād be like a Blink 182 song, paired with a video of a hammerhead shark. On the card he wrote: āRemember, you can always talk to me.ā