07/07/2022
Focus on God and who He says you are!
Maybe I’m On Another Sleepless Roll…. Woke up at 2:45 this morning. Last night I was awake at 1:50.
I've learned these sleepless nights run in unannounced cycles of about 3 weeks, and I am three days into what might be another one. Time will tell.
I receive no warning; they end just as abruptly as they begin. The process seems to repeat itself and has since last October. Three weeks on, three weeks off.
At least I am consistent, or perhaps.... God is.
Years ago, I decided that I wasn't going to lay in bed tossing and turning when I couldn't sleep, wrestling with the enemy and his minions about my personal fears and shortcomings, worrying about what tomorrow held for me. Nope.
I decided that I was going to take that fight to a small table in my living room, the one place in this world where the enemy never joins me.... because God does.
I sit down, the enemy retreats, and I do what I am doing now. I fellowship, I listen, and I write.
Perhaps, that is why God continues to wake me up in what has become consistent three-weekish chunks?....
"Shane, Break time is over. It's time! Time to get back to work for a bit! You know your ADD self is most productive for my work in this beautiful pre-dawn silence I have created for you. So, let’s GOOOOOO"! Sincerely, God (who never needs sleep)
Truth is, sometimes, I strongly dislike parts of who I am. The ADD part I was given, that I often joke about, can be so belittling. I see other people stay focused and consistent with their routines, their work, their life, and I am envious and jealous of the outcomes that often produces in some areas, but....
I have learned that while ADD people are often scattered they also tend to be very creative, and we are certainly more entertaining, which can sometimes present as annoying because our brains are hard to turn off.
I get it. It is what it is, and it produces what it produces, and for me one positive thing that ADD fueled creativity produces.... is "this".
"This", is the stories that pour out of me before the sun even begins to light the horizon. "This" is the product of emptiness that has been filled, brokenness that has been mended and lost becoming found, in Christ, and perhaps it is why God often wakes me up early, to squeeze it out of me before the world has a chance to so easily steal my attention.
Here's the thing….
The enemy, wants us to focus on “who I am”, and our own unique list, or perceived list, of worldly shortcomings.
God, simply wants us to focus on "whose I am"…. and Him. (Read that twice)
Focus on the “whose”, chip away at the “who”…. From Nose To Toes!
Shane / #16