09/01/2023
Agenda
Each day, my ritual is the same. Wake. Read stuff on my phone. Go downstairs. Take the dog out. Make coffee. Feed the dog. Water the plants. Drink coffee. Meditate.
Ah, there is the hitch. Meditate.
The ritual plays out perfectly, even cheerfully. There is no agenda at hand but the tasks themselves. Until I sit to meditate.
“Set an intention,” the teacher had said in my first failed attempt at meditating where I did absolutely nothing but think about frying bacon when I got home. “Set your mind on a goal, an agenda for the day.” How harrowing, I thought.
It does make sense from our American, goal-driven sensibility. Let your meditation be about creating an agenda that will get you ahead. Ahead of what? Or whom?
I’ve found that meditation is exactly not about creating an agenda. In fact, the more intention I give it, the more it stresses me the hell out which, I believe, is the opposite of what you are hoping to achieve when meditating.
I read a cool thing this week – let your meditation be about nothing more than clearing the clouds so that you can see the sky.
I like this image. Whether you call it meditation or prayer or quiet time or contemplation, it does not matter to God, even if you, by the way, don’t even believe in God. Meditation is a time for us to clear the clouds and see clearly.
What are the clouds? They are everything that our minds have created to clutter itself, to fill itself up with, to preoccupy us, distract us from truth and love.
This is my agenda for today - to allow God to clear the clouds and let me see the expanse which is much greater than any intention I could have ever set for myself.