02/12/2026
PSA: This is NOT a time of judgement. Nor the appropriate time for you to tell me I’ve grieved long enough! Or how to get over my son’s death because I have 4 other children! Sadly, I am not an uncommon phenomenon. Many have lost children; loved ones. I’m here to help/support the next person in love and respect so their journey may be a little less painful. No matter YOUR opinion; God has Promised to be CLOSEST to the broken-hearted AND to leave the 99 for The One!!! CAREFUL of your words! The seeds you sow will be a plentiful harvest! Good or destructive. Remember… God don’t play about me!!!
With that; I’m still dealing with my anger so watch your mouth 🫶🏽👏🏽👊🏽
We’ve embarked on year 5 of losing our Joshua Zuriel (God is my Rock and my Salvation). For me… it could have been 5 minutes and I’ve gone into my no rest, no food, plentiful tears, survival mode reality. (God-forbid HOW would you react to the loss of your young adult?!) I’ve realized people live in comparisons. So he was Not a baby, a child, but we had him for 22 YEARS of Loving Memories!!!
I’m not strong… and all I used to depend on left with him but I know WHOM my sustainer is!! As angry and hurt as I am with My Father, I know no one loves and cares MORE for me. THIS is The Promise I CLING TO!!! At times I’ve convinced myself Joshua had moved away to live his best life. No we didn’t “talk” as much as we used to or even wanted to but his presence was always with me. I know he really is in Heaven living his BEST LIFE but I MISS him… yet I am not without hope! No matter my range of emotions I know the love of My Father. He forges me in the hottest of fires! And the Nevertheless mentality didn’t come without pain and hurt. This is where we grow, in endurance. And I’ve endured A LOT yet NEVER without Him!! I personally know His Love.
Today, my heart is broken again. As I lay sobbing holding on to his pillow watching the sun rise I know ONE DAY we’ll be reunited!! ONE DAY I won’t miss him anymore because we’ll run together! We’ll laugh and talk over a cup of coffee listening to the soothing sounds of his tenor sax! So until then I lay covered! My husband standing at his post, nursing my wounds, holding me up or allowing me to fall. No condemnation or judgement! Just a Mother’s grief in all its transparency. He doesn’t choose to watch from the sidelines as I ride the waves, he follows the Leading of The Father so we can Move Forward together! Our children and Grandchildren deciding to Be the Difference embracing the power of empathy and compassion with a hug, smile and a kind word.
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