05/13/2026
I often get into a mindset of hoping others agree with me, see things my way, want to join me in my mission, or collaborate until we're all on the same page - and (finally) move forward, actually together...
This was somehow a childhood mentality I developed, and it has repeated many times throughout my life.
Where I'm drawn to, care about, and taek care of the "group" whatever the situation may be at hand. I tend to contribute ideas, think outside the box, and generally take responsibility in communities. I am driven to look at what’s possible for “us”.
There’s an energy behind my efforts - sometimes stemming from childhood wounding (come on everybody, let’s go!), sometimes it’s soulful joy to be working towards a beautiful vision.
I love my strengths in this area as I’m a committed person - and stand for connection, truth, and playful co-creation, wherever I go…
Inside, there lives a missionary’s heart… I wish to ease the suffering of others, and connect them to self + Source…
At the same time, I have co-created with God a lot of starts and stops, mediocre results (to my eyes), and feelings of frustration/challenge. Along with that, comes some depression, avoiding, and hiding out from the difficulty of moving any dream or idea forward. New scenarios, same feelings - and not much to show for my efforts (apparently)…
All of that being said - an inventory of Dominique’s effort and what she did or did not achieve - I’m grateful for the yearning of little Niki, my inner child. And the thoughtfulness and care of Dominique, my enthusiastic strivin’ n hidin’ self…
Above the innocence of childhood meaning-making and the goodness+conditioning showing up if adulthood is the spirit soul.
Or rather, at the core - there’s just me. Eternal, blissful, conscious servant of God.
And who is she? Who knows?! Hahaha…
I recently experienced a breakthrough, and immediately afterward needed to get this project started. (See in the comments)
I already had the name, the image, and even the music rights for the intro/outro music. Sitting on ideas for months. Yep that’s me!
My breakthrough is that I’m free. I don’t need to wait for anyone to move forward with my life. Where there’s a will there’s a way. And the world is my oyster (as they say?!)...
Combining my need to be expressed, my desire to come out from hiding, my desire to speak about spiritual life, and be playful + creative - I’m channeling my energy into a podcast. I’m committed to doing at least 5 episodes, and then we will see how I feel about the experiment.
Here is the first episode. 👇
For some reason the editing I did to fade music in and out did not export. I can’t work on it anymore, so here it is in a rough format!
