05/15/2019
Yesterday was kinda a big deal and truly this is a comeback story!
9 years ago my parents and I along with many, many gracious friends established a scholarship in Jackson’s memory to be given to a student who had suffered the loss of a sibling. We wanted to give the scholarship for the first time in 2019 - the year Jackson would have graduated - right now. These past 9 years have allowed us to grow this scholarship into an endowment that will last for many years.
Yesterday, I went to Paris, Texas to meet the young man who was awarded the scholarship. Y’all, he is everything I ever hoped Jackson would be!
Honestly, I’ve been pretty bitter about this thing all year. I could not see the good in this. I could only see my very real pain. I didn’t want to give somebody else’s kid a scholarship. I wanted my kid! I wanted graduation, and prom, and senior pictures, and scholarships. And I struggled! Comparison is the absolute thief of joy!
Many of you have been on the journey with me for a long time, and know the total sum of tremendous grief. It is raw. It took a lot of years and work to find peace, deliverance from guilt, and joy.
But let me tell you what! Last night, I met Kellen and his family, and I absolutely felt God’s hand in every bit of it. I felt so proud and so strong. I knew Jackson was shining his light on us. It was an incredible night.
And although the scholarship was named after and memorializes Jackson, it honors Meredith. My word, how strong is she? I am in awe of the grace she has and the sheer willpower to overcome such grief and loss.
I’m sharing pictures of Kellen. He is remarkable!
Never underestimate the power of love. It is amazing. Faith (and God knows mine was mustard seed little at times) will sustain you in your darkest hours and sometimes make you feel like all those tears were with it!