Daughters of the Most High King is an organization dedicated to giving its members a rock solid identity and knowledge of the truth. Our looks will change. Our friends and partners will change. However, once we know that we are children of the Most High King, we have a confidence that no person or circumstance can take away from us. Once we know who we are, it changes everything that we do. We fo
cus on 3 main areas: volunteerism, evangelism, and discipleship. I knew that I needed to go into ministry after five month battle with cancer in 2011. Before getting sick, I was the life of the party. I would go to at least three celebrity parties and events per week. My phone would ring off of the hook. Suddenly, I was left alone, not knowing whether I would live or die. No one called to see how I was doing. No one seemed concerned about me. Instead of getting depressed, I spent hours each day reading the Bible. The Bible gave me a peace that was beyond human understanding. Even though I was in excruciating pain and had to hold on to the walls to make it to the bathroom, I was incredibly peaceful. I learned the true meaning of Isaiah 26:3 which says, "He who keeps his eyes on God will remain in perfect peace." It was during those months of pain and reading the Bible that I also realized that society has taught us everything backwards. Society tells us that the physical is all that matters when real joy comes from developing the spiritual. I realized that we were created to worship the living God. Unfortunately, pop culture teaches us to worship ourselves while taking pills to quench the anxiety and depression that comes from being self absorbed. Even when I was going to all those parties and dating rich and handsome men, I was essentially empty inside and always frustrated and depressed about some minor thing. Ironically, I found myself in the worst predicament ever; yet, I was filled with joy and peace. I learned that as we worship God, He gives us His peace. He gives us HIs joy. He gives us His wisdom. Most important, He gives us His love, and His love is enough. My bout with cancer and being unable to walk properly changed my entire way of thinking. Before my problem, I always felt that euthanasia and abortion were good ideas because the people would not have a good life anyway. Now, being on the brink of death, I realized that all life is important and we each have a purpose. If we can't do one other thing, we can worship God and pray. I realized that those in nursing homes who feel like a burden actually have a divine purpose right now. I realized that those in prison who feel like their life is over actually have a divine purpose right now. They do not have to wait until they are free. They can be light to others in the prison. I realized that women who have left the s*x trade have a divine purpose and they do not have to wait for society to affirm them: they are loved and forgiven the God who created them right now. He loves them enough to die for them. The Lord began showing me that there are scores of young people out there who are suicidal because they do not know who they are. They watch television and listen to the radio to get the message that they are not thin enough, light skinned enough, or rich enough to be accepted. They get the message that their hair is not long enough, they are not tall enough, or smart enough to be accepted. They need to hear the message that they are children of the Most High King. He is king of Kings and Lord of lords. In Him, they have beauty. In Him, they have purpose. In Him, they have infinite value. From 2013-2014, I began sharing this message of hope to people that need to hear it. It was life-changing for them. I began to design cards containing this message and delivered them to nursing home residents, college students, and cancer patients. They were extremely grateful and energized by the message that they were people of purpose and value right now. They did not have to wait until they could walk. They did not have to wait until they did some big thing. They were valuable right now. God loves them right now. God's love is enough. During these visits, we would take groups of college students. What was so interesting was that these young people would be tired and slightly depressed when they would arrive. After sharing love with people who needed hope, their depression would turn to pure joy. One day this actually happened to me. The man that I was going to marry suddenly had to move to California. I was depressed and despondent. I wanted to cancel the nursing home visit scheduled for that week because I felt that I had nothing to offer the people. To my surprise, as soon as I started speaking with the people at the nursing home, I become joyful and energized. I delivered the cards and encouraged each resident. I enjoyed it so much that I took the remaining cards to college students. We had the most interesting conversation and I enjoyed encouraging them. The following year, I continued to design the inspirational cards for those needing a lift during Valentine's Day, Easter, Mother's Day, and Christmas. However, I had also begun doing a game night at a cancer center. This game night was a big hit. One of the cancer patients experienced a miracle in pain level. Her pain level went from a 9 to a 3. The manager of the cancer center reasoned that so many endorphins were released during the game that it led to certain systems to heal. The manager asked that I would do the game night more often. I did it at least once a month for a year. We had hundreds of inspired cancer patients and 2 people gave their life to the Lord. In January, 2015, tragedy struck. My mother was diagnosed with terminal cancer. She was completely depressed because she had never been sick before. I had several big projects that I was working on, but I had to put everything aside to help her. I prayed and fasted regularly. I knew that dad's idea of an experimental surgery was not good; however, I had to go along with whatever he and mom decided. She died after the surgery. I was crushed about losing my best friend and main confident. Since I was in total disagreement with many of the decisions made and was vocal about it, as well as a betrayal by a member of clergy, much of dad's side of the family turned against me. In addition to losing my mom, I also had to endure ridicule, slander, and harsh treatment from family members. Most people would have committed su***de if they had the triple whammy of having to halt million dollar projects, losing their mom and best friend, and being ridiculed and slandered by family members. However, the Lord was by my side. He comforted me like no human being could comfort. He gave me a peace once again that was beyond human understanding. I took my pain to Him, and once again, He was enough. I managed to do one dinner and game night at the cancer center with my Father in June of 2015. In July, I managed to give inspirational cards and gifts to homeless veterans and do another dinner at the Cancer Center. In August, I got the opportunity to serve at an orphanage. I shared my stories about losing my mother and how God's presence can help us to overcome our pain. My girls were touched and inspired. The next week, I bought a former gang member to the girls and she inspired them even more because her story was similar to their stories. I began working with the girls 1-3 times each month. In total, 42 girls gave their life to the Lord. All of them were positively impacted by stories of hope. Now many of the girls are making real changes and I am very proud of them. It is amazing how the Lord can use our pain to lead us to our purpose. He takes broken pieces and makes a mosaic. He takes crushed lemons and makes lemonade. Only God could orchestrate such a thing. If we trust Him, He can give us a sense of identity. He can give us a sense of peace. He is our ultimate source of wisdom. We spend years looking for it elsewhere, but is is only found in Him. When I was younger, I was depressed most of the time. This is despite the fact that I had a face like Hale Berry and legs like Tina Turner. Men would go wild when I would walk into a room or shop in the mall. I spent my free time shopping, eating out, dating, and working out. I was obsessed with losing those last ten pounds and looking a certain way. Despite having it all, I was filled with anxiety, confusion, and depression. This is because I looked good on the outside, but I was completely empty on the inside. Even though I had an amazing ability to get men, I had no ability to keep them. Men are not attracted to emptiness. At the age of 25, I gained weight because I was tired of being obsessed with counting every calorie and I refused to be ruled by looks. My life became a lot happier, but something was still missing. I went to counselors and they could not help. Then I decided to surrender my life to Jesus Christ. This is the act that changed everything. Instead of being anxious and depressed 95% of the time, I became calm and peaceful 95% of the time. I learned that there is no greater sense of joy and peace than living in the presence of God through Jesus Christ. For the 2016 year, Daughters of the Most High King will focus on spreading the message of self-acceptance, hope, and peace that comes from knowing and being known by Jesus Christ. As the Apostle Paul said, "I claim to know nothing but Jesus Christ and Him crucified." We will challenge the notion that true peace or joy can be found anywhere else. It is not in body alterations or losing 30 pounds. It is not in becoming rich or having 2,000 followers on Twitter or Facebook.