07/25/2015
They did her makeup, told her to be strong, to be true to herself. She was amazed by her own transformation in Atlanta. “I didn’t realize how whole living as a woman made me feel, dressing up and going out that way. I may not have been the cutest thing, but I felt at peace. I felt this is me.”
Then last year she lost her job as a result of company cutbacks, and the whole edifice instantly crumbled. No job meant no apartment. Desperate to cling to her new life, she began sleeping in her car, but there was only so long she could go without a regular meal or shower. A month into her nomadic lifestyle, she realized she had to decide: continue living in a car as Alena, or go home to Albany as Christopher.
Alena’s reality in the deep south is that through a combination of her mother’s disapproval, the threat of violence, joblessness and a lack of medical care, she is forced to live in a male body she considers a ‘shell’