05/22/2021
My life mantra right now, but I’m not gonna lie.... Fear is a very real and very strong emotion. Being in the middle of a recurrence of my cancer is terrifying and I have felt way more emotional this go around than I did initially. Since I received the PET results on Tuesday, my days have been spent on the computer and on the phone, not only trying to make sense of it all, but, trying to figure out the next steps in this journey. GOD has blessed me immensely by placing the most amazing people in my life to help navigate the way and for that I’m beyond grateful, but also sad about what circumstances had to take place to lead me to these wonderful souls. Have you ever stopped, really realized and taken notice of Gods Handprint in your life? This week, I’ve seen Him all over every single aspect of mine and it has just made me love and desire Him even more. I can clearly see how 17 years ago, God used my sweet daddy to do something to protect my girls and I right after my divorce that at the time he felt necessary to do to protect us, that very thing may ultimately play a part in saving my life now! Also, friends that I’ve met in those same years, God is using them and their resources in many ways in direct relation to my health! God is in control everyone and He wants the very best. When everything seems impossible and we are in the absolute valley, He sends amazing reminders that He is there and has gone before us! He knew I would be exactly where I am right now and He’s promised He would never leave or forsake me. So, here I am, terrified of what’s next, but standing on His Promise that He is already there and that all I have to do is to Trust!! So, today I am going to repeat “Faith Over Fear” over and over and do my best, inside my humanness to believe it!! Blessings!
