i created this page for people who have lost a baby from a miscarriage(s),had a baby stillborn,and infants who have fought till the end!!to share your story,your thoughts,and somewhere you can let all your feelings out.i didnt have anyone who understood and nobody was there for me.i felt like i was the only one until i found support groups.they have helped me realize just how many people are feeli
ng the same pain as I and that i wasnt the only one having to grieve over such a tragic loss.it was the only place i felt i could go to and talk about my angel and that people would understand exactly how i was feeling.It has helped me and so therefore im hoping i can help others as well. I had a weird feeling one night something was just telling me to take a test although i just felt it was going to be negative to my surprise it came out positive.so after 3 positive pregnancy tests i made an appointment which was set for April 6th 2011. 2 days before my birthday April 8th.so on the 6th it was definately confirmed that i was carrying a precious little one inside! that was the best birthday present ever!! :] since i didnt know how far i was they told me to come have an ultrasound.so on april 12th my fiance and I went to see our angel for the first time!! we got to see the heartbeat and our little one was moving around so much it was amazing! My due date was Nov. 8th (which was a few days before my fiance's birthday)which they later changed it to Dec. 7th then changed back. My fiance didnt tell me until i conceived that he had an accident back when he was little and that he wasnt even supposed to be able to have kids!! after that i thought of my baby as a little miracle!! i started getting bigger and i thought everything was going great!! on may 12th i was cramping and i didnt think nothing of it because cramping is normal in pregnancy.But as the day progressed it got worse so that night i was in more pain than ever and then i started bleeding.i went to the emergency room where they told me i was having a miscarriage.they gave me meds for the pain and then got everything out. i kept telling them i wanted my baby back and although they told me they were so sorry it didnt help at all..they laid my baby on a tray at the end of the bed!! he looked so perfect.had the cutest little hands and feet! they were not sure what caused it.my fiance and i were in tears!! My graduation ceremony was held on the same day as my miscarriage.although i was loopy from the drugs i managed to go and the whole time my family and i were in tears.i didnt get one good graduation pic of me smiling.i was heartbroken and just wanted my baby back! so a month later they told me it was a baby boy and that i was further along than they thought!! i was actually 14 weeks and 2 days rather than 11 and 3 days.i couldnt believe i carried my baby that far! they say after 13 weeks your safer from miscarriage so i didnt understand what happened and felt it was my fault tho i knew i had done everything right! not a single day goes by that i dont think of my precious baby boy
