01/02/2026
My dearest David,
As we end 2025 and start a new year, I am reminded of how quickly time passes, especially as I get older. What once felt like waiting forever, like when we were little kids excited for Christmas morning to open presents, time comes and goes so fast it makes your head spin. I find myself wanting time to just stand still and cherish more moments with friends and family.
It’s hard to believe 8 years have passed since I last saw you. You would be 31 now. I still think of you as curious, alive, and brilliant with a mind far beyond your 23 years. When I write to you every year, I want you to know we are all still well and carry a part of you in our hearts.
Let’s get you caught up but first, tell grandma hi for us and that we all love her. She celebrated her 94th in heaven and it was our first Thanksgiving, Christmas and now New Year’s without her. Please tell your dad and uncle Rod hello as well.
Sam is 11, continues to sleeps on your bed and is still the best boy ever! Tom and I are still honeymooning, and you would be so proud of both Mike and Morgan as they continue to help improve the lives of others. Your cousins keep having kids and your stepsiblings added another making a 4th grandchild for Tom this year. Overall, the world remains a bit dysfunctional and in 3 years I hope to have better news for you, but in the meantime, it is still made up of people who do more good than not.
This year included my retirement and I’m still adjusting. After 30 years of the intensity and urgency that comes from working in an ICU, I’m getting used to quieter surroundings without alarms and no longer doing all the things we did that normal people don’t want to hear about. I have learned that not everything deserves my attention and energy and it is important to stay with what is meaningful.
When you were still with us, evolving technologies seemed manageable. Now updates to new systems appear before people fully adapt to the last ones…change does not pause. For many of us, the pace has outgrown what we are humanly able to absorb and it feels like the world is updating itself faster than people can catch their breath. I often think you would have understood it quickly, you always did. You were brilliant at learning and you would have found your own way through it, filtering out what didn’t matter and holding onto what did. The things that have not changed still move at a human pace and include love, grief, kindness and connection.
David, when you left, you took with you every word I never said. As your mom, I am in awe of how deeply you changed me and thankful for every moment we shared. I carry everything I should have said and everything I still feel, tucked away in a place in my heart that belongs only to you. You are still with me in the way I see the world and love. I carry you forward, not as someone frozen in time but as someone who continues to belong and evolve in my life as it unfolds.
I miss you every day and love you always. Until next year my beautiful boy,
Love Mom