07/09/2026
Well, back to check in with you guys! Been a few minutes again I apologize. Well I know I’d mentioned I was having some tests and scans done for various injuries/worries. Good news is there are no new hernias, so the pains I’d been having were not that serious (they’ve also since stopped so yay!) I had an mri done on my shoulder as well. Nothing major damaged in there aside from some inflammation and potential minor damage to the AC joint. I have a steroid injection next Thursday, and if it doesn’t help then we can figure out where to go, but structurally the shoulder is sound so things are as good as they can be there.
Today however is a day I haven’t been looking forward to. It’s the two year anniversary of the last time I spoke with dad. Two years ago I heard him say “Love you Bubba” one last time. An hour and a half later my dad was gone, spending time with my two aunts Karen and Dodi and uncle Steve. I found a song that I have included in the Hall Across the Country playlist on Spotify (feel free to search the list up and you can take a listen at some of the stuff that helps boost me up on those long, lonely road days). “Monsters” by James Blunt and Iam Tongi (I’ll put the link in the comments). Originally written by Blunt for his dad who’d been given a short time due to cancer (he is still alive however defying odds!) but the words always take me back to that last conversation. The song makes me cry EVERY time I hear it but I leave it on the list simply because it transports me back to that last few minutes with Pap.
Years of working on a concrete wall crew with him he’d always say “I don’t want you to end up like me” I always thought he meant being on a wall crew. But I think he meant being someone who is only defined by work. Dad was very proud of his work as a wall guy. And on a job site even when he was the oldest guy there, no one could keep up. As I’ve gotten older, I’ve realized I’ve become dad. I take all my value from the work I do in this warehouse I’ve been in for almost 13 years. I’m trying to work on that, but still looking for a therapist as well as that will be the easiest way to work through the “why” for me dedicating my life to only working.
I miss you pap. But I will see you again. But until then, it’s my turn, to chase the monsters away.
All that sad, sappy stuff outta the way, the next big challenge is on the horizon for me. In five weeks time, I’ll begin the Buckeye 200 Mile Endurance Run. A 203 mile out and back race from Lake Erie to Wellsville HS and back. It has a 6 day time limit where I’ll be forced to cover on average 34 miles per day, for 6 consecutive days to finish. This is probably the most insane race-type challenge I’ve ever taken on. But yall know me by now, I’m not one to shy away from stupid! 😬
One day at a time guys. Keep going. We believe in you, and we’ve got your back!