06/04/2023
One year ago today my son woke up in eternity and my family’s lives were forever changed. I struggled with wether to post anything about this day. For me I just want this day to pass. Most of my days are filled with darkness with intermittent burst of light, but this day is certainly darker than most. This first year has been about getting through our family’s “first” without John Winn. The first birthday you celebrate, the first Halloween, his first birthday, our first Christmas, etc. Today checks off the last “first” now it’s just about how many times I go through those things before God calls me home. The burst of light that for a moment tears through the darkness have come in all forms. The ultimate reason I decided to post this today was the brightest of those lights has been how much our family, friends, and community have loved us through this year. You expect that kind of support from those closest to you and in the immediate aftermath of such a tragedy. The support and prayers we still get to this day from those closest to us, to those we haven’t seen in years, to people we don’t even know. People who heard John Winn’s story and have reached out to us with thoughts, prayers, and support. This has been and continues to be the brightest light in the darkness for us. For that I had to post this to tell you all how thankful and blessed we are for that support. It has been awe inspiring and so needed. Most days I have to look in the mirror at some point and remind myself of two things. First, “the moon is round” and second “you are never out of the fight.” Just because the darkness obscures the moon doesn’t mean it still isn’t round, and when the darkness comes you can either let it consume you or you can fight. As long as God above chooses to let you draw a breath you are never out of the fight…..so fight!!!