Beyond Suicide

04/14/2026

12/27/2025

12/22/2025

11/13/2025

With the holidays upon us, this time of year can be especially hard. This will be our 5th holiday season without my son Alex. It hasn’t gotten any easier really but I do know how to prepare myself now to get thru. Those first few years after were especially hard, we didn’t feel very festive and just needed the holidays over. We jsut got thru. The past few years I’ve tried to lean more into the beauty of the season. But the holidays, they just aren’t what they use to be always with that missing piece. ~dp🐰🩵

11/13/2025

I’ve found that reminding them of all the good that’s in their life (like a loving family) doesn’t change their suicidal ideations. In fact, they can say “what’s wrong with me, I have all this and I’m still miserable.” Hopelessness is not being able to see themselves get better. It’s not about what’s going on the outside of themselves, but inside.
That’s why no matter what we know or don’t know about their current situation, su***de always takes us off guard. It leaves us crushed beneath a mountain of whys.

TONIGHT is our “Beyond Su***de” bereavement group. If you’ve lost a loved one to su***de, Please consider attending.
6:00-7:30 316 Chestnut st Gainesville, Tx

09/01/2025

There’s a version of me that existed when they were still alive.
I can still picture her—laughing more freely, moving through life with a kind of ease she didn’t even realize she had.
She didn’t know how fragile everything really was.
She didn’t know that one phone call, one diagnosis, one final breath could change her forever.

I’m not her anymore.
But I haven’t quite figured out who I am now, either.

And that’s the gap.

That strange, quiet space between who I used to be and who I’m becoming.
It’s filled with memories I can’t let go of and questions I don’t know how to answer.
I’m living in the in-between—still tethered to the past, but slowly learning how to breathe in the present.
Grief has carved out pieces of me I didn’t even know existed.

Some days I feel lost in it.
Other days I catch small glimpses of the new version of me—wiser, softer, stronger in ways I never asked to be.
But mostly, I just miss them.
And I miss the me I was when they were still here.

So if you’re here too, trying to make sense of this version of yourself that doesn’t quite fit yet—
I see you.
This gap isn’t a failure.
It’s the sacred space where healing begins.
Where identity shifts.
Where love and loss coexist.

You’re not broken.
You’re becoming.

And even in the gap, you are never alone.

07/15/2025

Registration and donations are now open for the 2025 Cooke County Walk to Break the Silence on Saturday, September 27th. Your participation and donations help us continue our vital work of supporting those affected by su***de loss. Together, we can break the silence and bring hope to our community.
Go to cookecountylossteam.org to register or click on the following link:
https://www.zeffy.com/ticketing/2025-walk