08/15/2026
Life lately… last Friday Carson found a hard lump on the top of his head and he knew it wasn’t normal. Of course, as soon as I felt it, I panicked instantly; fearing the worst. I messaged his oncologist and she said that right now she isn’t concerned, but to keep an eye on any changes. He goes back up to the hospital Monday the 24th, but they may want to see him sooner if the lump changes (gets bigger, painful, etc…). As of now, the lump has stayed the same. So, for now, I will just pray that it is a simple cyst. Unfortunately, people think that since the chemo is done, his blood counts are starting to normalize, and that his port is out, that our lives have gone back to normal; but that is very, very wrong. We have a new normal; and though we only go up to the hospital once a month, those other 29 days in-between, we constantly worry and are always in fight-or-flight mode. As for Carson, the meds may be finished and his hair has grown back; thick and beautiful, but the side effects? Sometimes he struggles with his emotions and he fears the cancer will come back. He openly talks about death because he has met friends at the hospital who have died from cancer. He isn’t “back to his normal self” because I don’t think he ever will; he’s a totally different kid. He appreciates life, he loves hard, he expresses how he feels, and is very sentimental. At such a young age, he knows how fragile life is. I just want to raise awareness to the fact that cancer changes lives forever; things don’t ever go back to “normal.” Our life is far from “back to normal,” but I will 100% appreciate all of the blessings that each day brings. 🧡🎗️🥹
Please, please send prayers to Carson… that the lump on his head is just a cyst or something normal. 🙏🙏🙏
