08/16/2023
Stolen from a Brother:
Sometimes I wish I was "normal". I wish that every time I walk into a bar, restaurant, or pretty much any room full of people, that I didn't instantly look around and immediately assess potential threats, search for exits, size up every single mo********er, position myself strategically, develop a plan of action, come up with a backup plan, figure out an emergency egress plan, search for objects that can be potential weapons; all before ordering my first drink or sometimes, before sitting down. I wish I didn't constantly observe people's movements, their demeanor, their facial expressions, tone of voice, and their actions. I wish I didn't have a constant readiness to fight. I wish I could just be carefree and not always feel the need to be so situationally aware. I wish I didn't have such a good understanding of escalation of force and violence. It is a constant reminder of my former self, from whom I can never escape. But then I remember... ******** , you're a bad mother fu**er. Ruck up and keep moving!
Salute to all my brothers and killers out there!
Thanx Frank Gallagher