06/02/2026
Self-Injury: My Why
"I used to feel like I was not quite in the world, moving through work almost invisible, like I could disintegrate in a moment. Self-injury (I used safety pins, paper clips…) brought me back into my surroundings, helped restore focus. Other times when I was alone and felt dark and numb, cutting showed me was still alive. It was not about su***de. It was about knowing it was my body and my body was alive. There were also times when the anxiety and tension was so strong self- harm would release the tension, then I could breathe again."
-Koleen
This post is a part of Roots Up's 'Project Why' project on self-injury. You can learn more about the project at rootsup.info/project-why.
If you would like to submit your why, you can do that here: tinyurl.com/WhySI26
Image description: A gray silhouette is beginning to disintegrate at the hands and lower legs in the lower left corner of the image. The background is white except for the image and a gray mottled line around the bottom and right border. The black text reads as above.