Hallie's Heroes

09/21/2026

09/12/2026

This is the best way to describe, at least for me, what I was feeling soon after Hallie got diagnosed with cancer.
We were all in the car driving (Me, 3 kids, 1 hubby)
We were waiting at a stoplight for what felt like eternity, but I was prepared
I had been in the correct lane, so no last minute blinker pleading or anything like that.
I waited my turn
Patiently
Even though little people were being little people
Suddenly everyone needs to p*e
and
is also dying of thirst
I don’t know how that always seems to happen all at once?!?!!
Anyways life be lifing
As we slowly approach our turn I realize the light is out
Like wtf this is a very important light in order to enter our neighborhood I have to go thru this light
I know in my head, I could easily turn right, and drive just a bit further and go in thru the back but it’s also out of the way, just a bit
And I’d already been waiting, waiting, to just go straight
All I want to do is continue on my journey
suddenly I see a car whip around from the line behind me and come up on me on the left
They were yelling just turn right
And I’m like
I don’t think so
I put my car in park and stubbornly waited
If I have to wait all y’all’s got to wait to
In my head I had done everything right
I went to the correct lane
I went to the doctor
I took her in
I waited patiently in line
Just like I waited for scans, X-rays, MRIs,
lab results that only brought on other labs and more waiting
I am not going to turn right
And as I was overcome with anger and about to get outta the car to what
To cry and yell and maybe lose my mind because I can’t understand why my child got this terrible sh*tty worst news ever
Because you only need to say 1 word
And people will stop mid sentence
Cancer
Cancer
Cancer the worst word ever
Every hope and dream is now suddenly very different
Phone calls to announce births and happy news are now more hushed
Closed door
Secretive
Cancer
The word can suffocate a room
doctors are saying things like amputation
and more chemo
Hasn’t she been thru enough????
Cancer
The light didn’t magically turn green
I fu***ng turned right
I cried and was mad but I never got out of the car
I wanted to yell and scream but the only ones who heard me that day was my family
Having to watch me at the lowest pick myself up to somehow lead into dinner and goodnight stories
To pick up the pieces to my terrible no good very bad day
Anyways I turned right
I apologized to my family
And we kept going
That is childhood cancer
You keep going when you very much want to stop
Keep going when there isn’t anymore to do
We’ll blast more chemo at it
Radiate the f**k out of the tumor
The light doesn’t turn magically green
We reroute
Reroute work, schedules, after school, dinners
We reroute because that’s the only way to fight this terrible disease
turn right when we don’t want
Pivot
Reroute
That’s all that can be done
**kcancer

09/02/2026

Today I was whining to Hallie. She asked me “how’s my day going?” And I replied “life just really sux some days Hal.”
And she totally cancer carded me
Like put the whole hand down “now momma we both knowwww it could be way worse.”
You’re right baby girl, so right.
The start of September a newly diagnosed cancer family finds out what gold stands for. Patients friends and families who visit look into the rooms to see infants jumping in the bouncers with cancer bald heads and you realize heroes truly come in the tiniest of forms. The hospital becomes home and school and is decorated with such love and care. Waiting rooms become playrooms. And halls playgrounds. I have a love hate relationship with cancer- it scares the absolute $hit outta me but reminds me to live loudly and to be bold (while holding my uniqueness). To not waste time but also take the time to daydream.
It’s a constant paradox.
Ahhh but such is life
As I put down my Shakespearean feather pen
I shall close by stating
There are families receiving the absolute most devastating terrible news of their lives today
And there are families who are thanking the lord their babies are walking again after cancer took their leg.
Cancer has a gut wrenching way of twisting all the life out while also making you appreciate all the life that you have.
Go out and live

**kcancer

08/24/2026

Keeping up with yearly tradition Hallie let me take a 1st day of school picture! 1st day of college! Future hem/onc nurse.
I told her today when she graduates I can’t wait to compile a video with all her pictures from PreK almost every year it’s been something in the medical field (nurse, surgeon, oncologist, veterinary med). So proud to watch her fulfill this lifelong dream!
**kcancer

08/10/2026

It’s a simple mantra
Destroy cancer
Rebuild the body
And Laugh
This note was carried in pockets and packed away in medical bags
Going through the last of the medical bags we found it today
I think I’m going to frame it
**kcancer

08/02/2026

that is all
**kcancer

07/29/2026

Hallie Bea getting her leg casted today - to say they love her attitude at the clinic is an understatement!
**kcancer

07/27/2026

a Wish with Wings granted Hallie’s Wish Trip. My most favorite quote of the day was I told Hallie “I wish I had my camera” and she said “oh momma my heart took all the pictures I’ll never forget!”

I’m so incredibly honored to give these kids an awesome day that th...