07/26/2025
Happy birthday Sam !!
Happy birthday to my best friend
Happy birthday to the one and only Samuel
Happy birthday to one of the goofiest chicks I’ve ever met
Happy birthday to the person with the best laugh ever
Happy birthday to my part time bully full time protector
Happy birthday to the first person I felt was family without being blood
I imagine you reading this and smirking thinking of all our hand written notes we’d pass in the halls , and all our late night antics and things we never got caught doing . Thank god , could you imagine ? I hope that you are anyway . I hope you are somewhere looking at the same sky as I am , listening to our favorite Nelly songs and living and loving your life , even without me in it . Because the truth is , if you’re out there , no matter what , I want health and happiness for you and I hope you know I loved you and still do .
If you’re not , and you’re gone I hope you’re haunting me (in a good way ) . ( too dark? , eh maybe, but hey that’s our sense of humor) . If you’re somewhere that you need to be freed from I hope one day there is a way that you or someone can tell us , show us , the way to you .
I loved you so much that when I knew you were gone too long it broke me . I’ve put myself back together, but not too well, there are still things missing, and pieces in the wrong places but I am surviving, somehow. If you can , call your sister her number is still the same as when we were kids , hell send a damn smoke signal . But if you can’t , and there’s anyone that knows anything tell us , please . Please stop this pain , this frustration , this confusion, this void . Not saying something may take away the chance to find her , save her or bury her . Put yourself in my shoes , what would you want ?