In Memory Of Anthony James Budnack ~ Born Sleeping ~ 03-23-08

THIS PAGE IS MADE IN THE MEMORY OF MY PERFECT ANGEL ANTHONY JAMES BUDNACK HE GREW HIS WINGS EASTER MORN MARCH 23 2008 WE MISS U SO MUCH I WAS ABOUT A WEEK FROM HAVING A C-SECTION WHEN MY CODY WOKE ME UP OUT OF A SOUND SLEEP CRYING MOMMY N ROLLED OVA TO C HE WAS STILL SLEEP SO I DECIDED TO GET UP N GO TO THE BATHROOM AS I MOVED TO GET I HEARD A POPPING SOUND I THOUGHT IT WAS MY WATER I FREAKED

N YELLED TO MY HUSBAND I THINK MY WATER BROKE HE WALKED AWAY FROM HIS COMPUTER TO COME N CHECK N I KNEW SOMETHIN WAS WRONG HIS WHOLE EXPRESSION CHANGED HE TOLD ME TO GET INTO THE BATHROOM AS QUICK AS I CAN I ASKED WHAT WAS WRONG THEN HE SAID WE NEED TO CALL 911 AS SOON AS I STOOD UP I SEEN WHAT WAS WRONG I WAS BLEEDING IT WAS JUST POURIN I STARTED TO HEMMORAGE RIGHT NEXT TO MY SLEEPING SON I GOT TO THE BATHROOM CALLED 911 N THEN EVERYTHING WENT FROM BAD 2 WORSE IN THE MATTER OF MINS MY BOYS WOKE UP HUBBY PUT THE GATE UP TO KEEP THEM OUT THE KITCHEN I WAS GETTIN REALY DIZZY N HANDED THE PHONE TO MY HUBBY N GOT TO MY FEET HAD TO GET OUT THE ROOM IT WAS SPINNIN N I HIT THE FLOOR I PASSED OUT RIGHT IN THE DOOR WAY OF THE BATHROOM/ KITCHEN ENTRY WAY HE DRAGGED ME TO THE KITCHEN N TRYED WAKIN ME UP AS HE STILL ON THE PHONE WTH 911 WHN I DID COME TO WHAT I SAW WAS MY CODY STANDIN ABOVE ME TELLIN ME 2 WAKE UP HE LOVES ME N NEEDS ME HERE WTH HIM THIS HAPPENED 3 MORE TIMES THE LAST TIME WHN I CAME TO HE WAS HUGGIN ME TELLIN ME MOMMY DONT DIE DONT LEAVE ME I TRYED TO STAND BUT MY LEGS WOULDNT WORK SO I DRAGD MYSELF TO THE BACK DOOR N OUT TO THE HALL I THOUGHT I WAS GNA DIE N I COULDNT LET THEM SEE THAT I COULD THAT I WAS SLIPPING AWAY N IT WAS HARDER TO KEEP FIGHTING THEN MY CODY APPEARED AT THE BACK DOOR N TOLD ME MOMMY I LOVE U PLZ DONT DIE HUBBY STILL ON THE PHONE WTH 911 N TRYIN TO CLEAN THE BLOOD SO THE BOYD WERENT FOCUSING ON IT THIS IS ALL GOIN ON FOR ABOUT 15 TO 25 MINS THEN THE FIRE DEPT N AMBULANCE FINALY SHOWED UP N MY STEP DAD CAME TO GET THE BOYS AT THIS POINT I AM ONLY REMEMBERIN BITS N PIECES WE GET TO THE HOSPITAL IM IN A ROOM SO MANY PEOPLE IN THEIR THEY TOOK ME OFF THE GURNEY N PUT ME IN A CHAIR I MUST HVE PASSED OUT AGAIN I CAME TO S1 SLAPPIN MY FACE N ASKIN ME MY NME THEY PUT BACK ON THE GURNEY CUZ I WASNT STABLE ALL ALONG I KEEP ASKIN IS MY BABY OK IS ANTHONY OK I KNW THE ANSWER DEEP INSIDE THEY ARENT TELLING ME ANYTHING N I FREAK OUT SCREAMING AT THEM FINALY THE ATTENDING COMES IN N HE SAY IM SRY WE LOST HIM ALL THIS TIME MY HUSBAND WAS IN THE WAITING ROOM N THEY WOULDNT LET HIM IN AT THIS POINT IN TIME I JUST WANT TO BE WITH MY ANTHONY I CAN FEEL THAT I WAS SLIPPING AWAY WHEN I CAME TO AGAIN I WAS IN ANOTHER ROOM IVS HOOKED UP EVERYWHERE GIVING ME BLOOD N FLUID THEN I FINALY GET TO C MY HUBBY HE COULDNT GET CLOSE ENOUGH TO HOLD MY HAND OR ANYTHIN CUZ IN THIS ROOM THERE WAS EVEN MORE DOCS N NURSES THEN IN THE OTHER N THEN THE ATTENDIN COMES N TELLS ME SOMETHIN BOUT HES GLAD IM STILL HERE THEN THY SAID I NEED TO HVE N EMRGENCY CSECTION CUZ THEY CANT DELIVER THE BABY WTH OUT 1 N IF I DONT HVE 1 I WILL BLEED TO DEATH I DONT REMEMBER GOIN IN THE OPERATIN ROOM I DO REMEMBER AT SOME POINT I THOUGHT I WAS DEAD I WAS WATCHING THEM OPERATE N YELLING AT EACH OTHER THE NURSES WERE RUNNING AROUND N THEY WERE MESSING WTH THE MACHINES THEY LOOKED SCARED N THEN IT WAS GONE N I WAS AWAKE N THE ATTENDING SAID WE GOT U BACK IM NOT GONNA LOSE U 2 I REMEMBER BEING BROUGHT BACK TO THE ROOM WHERE MY HUSBAND WAS N I ASKED ABOUT ANTHONY N THEY SAID HE WAS TO FAR GONE THEY COULDNT SAVE HIM N I FLIPPED OUT HUBBY WAS IN THE ROOM N I HEAR THE DOC TELL HIM SHE SHOULD B OK NOW IM SO SRY BOUT UR SON I WAS HOOKED UP TO EVERYTHIN N ALL HE COULD DO WAS TOUCH MY FOOT WHICH IS A BIG THING FOR HIM CUZ HE DONT LIKE FEET WE WERE TAKIN UPSTAIRS WERE WE GT TO VISIT WTH MY ANGEL BEFORE THEY TOOK HIM AWAY THEY SAID THEY DONT UNDERSTAND THERE WAS NOTHING WRONG WITH HIM HE WAS PERFECT THE ATTEDING CAME IN TO CHECK ON ME THTS WHEN I FOUND OUT HOW CLOSE I CAME TO JOINING ANTHONY THEY LOST ME 2TIMES DURING SURGERY HE SAID HES GLAD THT HE WAS ABLE TO SAVE 1 OF US MY HUSBAND CRYED CUZ HE SAID THEY CAME TO THE ROOM AFTER THE SURGERY N TOLD HIM IT WAS A CLOSE CALL BUT I WAS GNA B OK I HAD AN ABRUPTION N A CLOT THT FORMED IN THE CORD KILLED MY BABY BOY N ALMOST KILLED ME TO I HVE COME SO CLOSE TO DEATH IN MY LIFE BUT TO ACCUALY SAY THAT I WAS ABLE TO WATCH EVERYTHING THAT WAS GOING WAS REAL SCARY