05/22/2026
Today is a bit bittersweet. Two years ago today I had my double mastectomy. Two years ago today I was told today would be the day to look forward to. Today was my goal day. Remain cancer free for 2 years and you’re officially in remission. I had the celebration planned in my head and couldn’t wait for this day!!
Instead, today I’m spending part of my day for the third day in a row at the infusion center getting fluids after chemo to hopefully help the cumulative chemo side effects that are now giving me more bad days than good.
We’re now on round 12 and have been doing this since August and have spent quite a bit of time here. I’ve seen so many people with every different attitude towards their treatment and I’ve been given many opportunities through this journey to speak of Gods love.
Today I could be sad, or angry and I did let myself have that moment this morning, but only a moment. Today I will focus on the blessings God has given me during this journey.
Instead of being sad about the time I’ve spent here, I’m grateful for my loved ones that make sure I’m never alone and for the time I get to spend with them. Instead of focusing on how sick the chemo makes me feel, I’m grateful that the chemo is still working and I’m here, that instead of worrying about feeding my family, my sweet life group from church filled my fridge and I can focus on rest and recovery this weekend. That I have friends that will help with our household chores and a such a sweet and wonderful husband who always seems to know what I need. I could focus on the pain and difficulties that come from wearing a cold cap but instead I’m thankful to keep a majority of my hair and sense of normalcy for our daughter. I’m thankful that the Paxman rep came out this week to see why we had trouble last round and is replacing my cold cap to ensure that sense of normalcy for us.
I’m thankful for my amazing village that steps in and helps with our daughter and my amazing in laws that would do anything for me and love me as if I’ve always been their child. I’m grateful for my dad and Mary and all of their support. And most of all I’m thankful for all of the love and prayers from each and everyone of you that have prayed for me. That is the most precious thing. I will continue to fight, I will praise God in this storm and thank him for his love and light that he always sends me in this valley!
Thank you to everyone that has been on this journey with us! I’m so grateful for you!
We will be scheduling scans this week so if you could pray for good results I would be incredibly grateful!
Much love to you all!
