12/23/2025
You would be 11 today.... it's been 3,212 days since I last held you. We just celebrated your sister's 13th birthday this weekend and its so hard to think she was just a tiny little toddler when you passed away.
There isnt a moment that goes by when I dont think of you, but today, the day you blessed this world with your presence, the love and ache feel particularly strong. I remember the joy of your birth and every beautiful, challenging, and courageous moment we shared.
Im not sure how I have lived without you this long. Somehow, I have learned to live with the pain of your absence. I miss my best friend. You were always there, always listening to mama, always holding my hand, listening to my worries, celebrating happy times, sleeping next to me every single nap and evening. You were my buddy. My everything. My body yearns for you with every single cell inside of me.
Your battle with cancer showed a strength and grace that inspired everyone around you. You fought so hard, my brave boy, my hero. Although you left this world far to soon, your light still shines bright and will never be extinguished. You are still changing lives to this day and that makes me so very proud of you.
I wish I could hold you, bake your favorite cake, and hear you laugh. Today, I will put on my brave face and celebrate you. I will celebrate you and all of our memories we had together. You brought more light and love into my life in your short time here than many do in a lifetime.
I love you with all my heart, until my last breath, and beyond the grave. Until we meet again...
Happy Birthday baby boy.
Love,
Mom