01/03/2024
I hope everyone was able to spend time with loved ones last couple of weeks! Itās been a minute since the last update so here we go-
I finished my last treatment the week of Thanksgiving!
Getting through that last treatment was a definite test of my stubbornness and will power. There was a point where I had to breakdown and ask for what people need sometimes⦠and that was asking for help. When the pain takes over and your body forces you to sleep 48 hours in 3 days, there comes a point when even the most stubborn person has to ask for it. My tribe continued to be absolutely amazing!! All jumped in without drawing attention to the fact I was forced to ask for help⦠that dirty 4 letter word š
Chemo brain is a real thing and struggle that I did not anticipate. For those not familiar with chemo brain, the best way to describe it would be like early onset dementia. Losing your train of thought, troubles finding the words youāre looking for, and simple daily tasks are not so simple anymore! Thereās also frustration and anger because you canāt get your brain to function the way youāre used to. Unfortunately for my sister (who could only win the battle of the wits against me during this time š), my brain is starting to cooperate with me again.
I had my first follow up scan to see if Iāve beaten cancer into submission for the time being. They found a new small mass thatās about 2x3 cm and in the neighborhood of where my appendix resided. They are not sure if itās a related side effect of COVID and Paxlovid (COVID thought it would be fun to kick me when I was down) or if itās cancerous. I went in last week to have it biopsied but they couldnāt see it well enough to try to get it and run the risk of perforating my bowel. While itās frustrating, Iām thankful that they didnāt risk it and add to the list of problems. The biopsy has been rescheduled for this coming Monday.
Iāll share when I know more. So until next time, Iām going to continue to push my limits both physically and mentally to try to get back to feeling somewhat normal. š