08/05/2026
True Story
For some of us, in this lifetime, we never asked for the obstacles or some of the things we’ve had to face. Yes, we have all made bad choices and bad decisions. But one thing I can truly say is that I never asked for the type of pain I had to endure losing a child, especially at the hands of someone else.
Many people will look at you, hear your story, and some may even ask, “When will you stop telling your story?” But for me, I would rather not have this story at all. I would rather have my child here on this earth, living a long and fulfilling life.
One thing I can say about grief and triggers is that they are very tricky. It doesn’t matter who you are or what title you hold. Something as simple as writing my sons’ names Christopher, Corinthian, and Carlton triggered something deep within me. That one moment affected me for over two weeks.
During that time, I prayed, drew closer to God, and dwelled in the secret place. I made sure I remained in Him and abided in His presence so that my emotions would not override my faith and cause me to say or do things I shouldn’t.
So many times we want people to see only the good side of us. We put on the makeup, smile, and keep moving. But sometimes people also need to see that you can still stand no matter what you face, no matter what you go through, and no matter how deep the pain runs. God is exactly who He says He is, and He will hold you up.
One thing I have learned is that having faith and trusting God does not mean we won’t cry. It does not mean we won’t experience pain, hurt, or uncomfortable moments. It simply means that through the pain, God will grow us, reveal Himself to us, and prove that His Word cannot lie.
True story I would much rather have my child here than have lost him so early. I would much rather see all of my children living sanctified lives that are pleasing to God than to watch them experience the pain and suffering they have endured.
Lastly, I want to encourage someone today: Never be ashamed of who God is in your life. Never apologize for trusting Him. Allow God to prove Himself, no matter how low the valley may seem. There is no valley too deep for Him to reach you, sustain you, and carry you through.
So even in the valley, I will continue to give God the praise.
True story.
