05/01/2026
Hello poo, just call me "Lucy" BSHM. I jusy wanna share my experience po this last semester about my bf from BSIE... Itago nalang po natin siya sa pangalang "Karl". I met Karl han pasasalamat night back when I was 2nd year, an mayda rave2 and spraying water. We met through a common friend, nagkachatchat kami and soon after that, naging kami but here's the twist... I found out he was cheating on me but well...I cheated on him too.. one time I got drunk with friends and I made out with this random dude pero yun lang naman...
I don't know if validated ba ako to feel this especially since may sala man giyap ako pero mas malala kasi an iya eh... an iya is active cheating talaga, pinagsabay niya kami pero yunh sakin one time lanh. Masakit hin duro an iya hinimo haak like super... Maaram ako na never ako nagkulang haiya be it care, assurance or even monetary support. It akon la is di ko kaya mafeel it sakit na waray guilt or thoughts na "parehas la kami".
Sometimes mapapaisip ako na " Okay la ba na magisog ak haiya? " pero maaram ako na ramdam ko it sakit han iya nahimo haak. Waray pa kami hine mag isturya, dere pa hiya maaram na maaram akot iya hinihimo tas dere giyap hiya maaram nak hinimo.
tbh, I don't even know what I want anymore... quits la ba kami since both sides cheated? or bagat mas malala it iya? Nag-iisog ako haiya han iya hinimo pero nag iisog giyap ako tak hinimo haiya...
Makigbulag baak? kaso mahal ko liwat hi Karl ehh, nadire ak na mawara hiya haak since first ever bf ko hiya and may natabi na haam...
Tell me please, ano bat maupay himoon😭😭