23/08/2026
πAKMA-RESBAK SUNDAY VERSE #2
10th grade, last year of junior high school. I was burnt-out, I didnβt know what to do or where to go after high school. I was stuck in a deep and dark hole, locked myself inside my room for almost 3 months, isolated from the rest of the world, alone, with my dark thoughts. All I could think about was βhow do I escape this darkness?β, βwill I ever find the urge to live again?β. At that point, I had almost lost all hope, thinking I will never recover from this. After almost 6 months of agony, I eventually had the courage and privilege to talk to someone. I was diagnosed with MDD and GAD a day before my birthday. On the day of my birthday, it was the same old routine. I ate, scrolled through my phone, and slept again. But there was one thing I was taught to do but forgot to do during that time of my life, it was to pray and talk to God. So at the night of my birthday, just before the clock reached 12 AM and the day ends, I asked God βlord, kayano ako gin susugad nimo?β βkayano sugad hini tak gin aagian?β βtagi ako hin sign na aada kaβ. A day after my birthday I finally had the courage to socialize and go out with friends. A few hours into hanging out, an accident happened where me and my friends were. And as someone who received training for situations like that, I immediately held out a helping hand. Next thing I remember, I was at the back of a private vehicle going 80kmh at 1am with a patient lying unconscious. When we arrived at the hospital, by Godβs grace, he was spared.
While I was walking home from the hospital in the middle of the night, I asked myself, βamo naba ini it sign hit ginoo nga magpadayon?β βamo ba ini tak calling?β. As I am writing this reflection, it has now been 3 years since I was trapped under that darkness. And within those 3 years, I was able to finish high school and still graduate with high honors, and continued doing what I first did during that one night, saving people from the jaws of death without asking for anything in return. I have finally found my purpose.
To everyone reading this, let this be a reminder that God only gives the toughest battles to his toughest soldiers. No matter how dark the darkness may be, the light will always shine brighter when you surrender all of your worries to our creator. Life rarely goes according to our plans, but it always yields to a greater design. Romans 8:28 tells us that there is no guarantee that we will escape pain, but a promise that our pain will never be wasted. God does not create chaos, but he masterfully leverages it.
Entry by: j.solite | Worship Committee
