17/10/2019
I DOUBTED GOD’s EXISTENCE #2
Not that I had any special reason for not embracing Christianity, neither was I into any traditional religion that I depended on, but the plain truth was that Christian life did not in any way appeal to me for unexplainable reasons. I saw no reason why I should spend my time in such pastime. But frankly speaking, I knew not what Christianity is all about. I never even gave it a chance or any thought as to why I should reject God’s love and care that cost me nothing but verbal and whole hearted acceptance of Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Savior.
Reflecting back now, I could vividly remember that my environment and the life style of majority of people around me then did not permit me any space to try God as to prove or disprove his kindness, care and love for me. I rejected, hated and condemned God without actually knowing Him nor going closer to see His wickedness. God, please forgive me.
This life style continued in my youth years and even during my early marriage life. I decidedly but ignorantly remained a pagan. Surprisingly, I had deep dislike for fe**sh and voodoo practices. I had no faith and liking for anything that had to do with shrines even in my maturity age. It looked so funny as far as I was concerned, and I resisted emulating few youths that either joined Churches or attended different shrines on elected days for worship. I also resisted joining any cult group, but remained on my own.
Because of the environment I grew up however, in which there was constant violent fight and competition among youths as to who would be the strongest, I acquired charms that prevented knife and broken bottles used freely from penetrating my flesh. Fight would break out during traditional festivities, moonlight gatherings and youth social meetings. That was the only reason I had anything to do with fe**sh practice. I womanized a lot during my youth years, and drank moderate alcohol.
When I became an adult and got married, I still did not believe in Christianity and hated traditional practice as well. I saw it as a waste of time attending Church on Sundays. I had strong belief I did not need Christianity to achieve my life dreams, and that the invincible gods my father prayed to would always help me. My wife attended Catholic only on Sundays, and that was the much I came close to Christian life. She was not too committed to the Catholic life, but was rather compelled by colleagues that pestered her.
This could be your current situation and approach. Do you assume that Christianity is all but a joke? Have you been brain-washed to the point of hating Christianity and Christians with a passion, even without knowing exactly what it stands for? You may have been compelled to hate God and wish you see Him in person so you stab and kill Him. You may have been told that God does not exist. You may have been told that God is responsible for your miseries.
Also, you may have been told lots of negative stories and cooked up lies about Christians and Jesus Christ, just to make you reject, hate and kill them. “The taste of the pudding is, certainly, in the eating.” You need to come closer to God so you can accurately say: He is bad or wicked, or otherwise. You can hardly assess God from afar, and it is utterly wrong for you to base your relationship with someone else, how much more the Creator of the universe, on hearsay.
One of the first things I know God will do for you is that He will give you liberty, freedom, surround you with love and care, protect you from oppression and fear, heal your depression, heal your psychological challenge, free you from any form of bo***ge, free you from sin and crime, and immediately reward you with life full of light and bright future, open doors of success for you. God will tell you to love everyone, hate nobody and kill no one. In (Matthew 11:28) the word of God says: “Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”
Join any living church around you, but you have the option of subscribing to our prayer services, publications and other activities at Mountain of Glory Ministry International through: [email protected]. Also, you can call +234 8037857272 for counselling and prayers. It is all free.
Do remain subscribed to receive subsequent series of this article and many more which are very illuminating, entertaining and educative.
Pastor Chibuoka Chukwudebelu Okoye
General Superintendent
www.mountainofgloryministry.org
