Farnyi Krakye

01/11/2023

you gonna die anyway so why not choose to live whiles you have life?

19/06/2023

You've got to make a decision now and get comfortable being uncomfortable

12/06/2023

31/05/2023

Self-awareness, pride's a coat, and yes, I like to wear it
Buttoned up, don't like to let no air in
With a pair of gloves that I hope doesn't perish
I discovered, though, when I get holes in them
And I let joy in, I'm in higher spirits
My mistakes are like a screaming parrot
Just repeating words, I can barely bear it when I'm lost
-seth-

27/05/2023

i’ve always known that i’m not very good at many things. sometimes, i stumble upon things that are visible from miles away. sometimes, i break hearts i have no intentions of hurting.
but with you, i did everything right.
for a person who falls over open shoelaces and has trouble opening up her heart in front of someone, i dissected mine into 2 pieces, for you to see. i loved you with everything i had. they say there’s no way of loving someone, but i know did it right. i loved you right.
but you ruined love for me.
i don’t know what you see in her. i don’t know how you look into her eyes and convince yourself that she has more love for you. you’ve seen love in my eyes. you should know better.
i don’t get how you walk with her. you hold her palm tight, and hers is a grip so lose, one could detangle it with minimum effort. i held your hand better. i loved you better.
there are so many things in the world i have no idea about. the galaxies and the stars, poetry, astronomy. i am unaware of it all.
but i know everything about you. i know how much sugar you like in your coffee. or what is your comfort food.
because even if i don’t know much, i know how to love you.
i don’t know what you see in her. because you know love. i loved you more, i loved you better. and you should know that.

27/05/2023

there are times no one would understand your silence. don't battle to be un-silenced

26/05/2023

It all begins and ends in your mind. What you give power to, has power over you, if you allow it.

26/05/2023

there was a time when i started to believe in fairy tales. a time when the couples in the coffee shop would bring a smile on my face. but now that you are so distant – now that your contact name is slowly drifting down and down in my call logs – i have stopped believing in fairy tales.
is it too much to ask for? to be loved by the person we love? i guess, it is. i wish someone had told me that you can’t force someone to love you. i kept fighting for you, and you kept pushing me away.
i know it’s not your fault. i know it’s nobody’s fault if they can’t love someone back. but doesn’t mean it won’t hurt.
now that i look back, i find it a bit painful you know. the songs we shared; the books we read; the movies we watched; the food we ordered – the bond we made
– it was in the end, a kite flying without a string. i thought it was flying high, but in reality, it was flying away.
i know for sure, had you given the chance, i would have been the best lover, friend and home you would ever get. but i guess that’s not in my hand. i guess i
fell in love and it’s my doing to deal with it. i understand you. and i will always try to be a great friend if nothing more.
after all said and done, there’s a very small corner of my heart — a part where your name lives, a part that still hopes — that maybe and just maybe, you’d love
me too.

26/05/2023

some love stories are as screwed as they can be. the debut is cute but bejewelled with red flags which you ignore for the longest and then boom red becomes your favourite color.
things are great until they aren’t. you stopped updating, didn’t make out time, out of touch out of love and when you finally did something it gave a crazy rush which wasn’t right you know? I’d rather take a constant sub-minimal amount of love than one sudden rush once in a blue moon.
you made me ask for things that should’ve come naturally to you. the bare minimum.
everytime you saw me reaching my threshold, you would cry and be the sweetest person ever, i think it reminded me of the person i fell in love with in the first place so i forgot everything and stayed.
but i really really wish that things were good not only when it was about to end, but in the start and in the in betweens too. i wish it didn’t take the fear of me leaving for you to be the best version of yourself.
our love was sadly a game of push and pull and i think ive made my decision now to put a stop to it. once and for all. im pulling out of this loop, not just for me but for you too.

26/05/2023

If you find someone who makes you smile, who checks up on you often to see if you’re okay. Who watches out or you and wants the best for you. Who loves and respects you. Don’t let them go. People like that are hard to find.
- Franz Kafka

26/05/2023

You expect respect, but you never give it.
You expect love, but I mever never recieve it.
You expect so much, baby am I alone, just not enough?
I know you say you love me, that everythings okay.
I know you say everything is well, but baby we're not.
I know you believe that we're in this together, but you take it all for yourself.
Let me help, let me be the one to guide you.
Let me be the one to come inside you
Be my soul purpose and I promise to be yours, baby can't you see, We need ine another. Its just you and me.
I'll make dinner and relax, its not that you're bad at cooking I just don't want you stressed.
Between work and school you've become all tense.
I may not be the best maid but Ill try my best.
Oh sweet heart, am I what you see,
What you see in your future,
What you hope to see inthe morning
What you hope to see before bed,
Am I what you want?
What you need?
What you wish for?
I don't know about you babe but I can't wait to see your face,
Feel your warm embrace,
Hear your heart race,
Smell the scent you wear so well.
But if don't want me, if you can't see me, if you don't wish on my behalf, then please...
Forget about me.