18/02/2025
When I decided to give sobriety a go back in 2016, I thought it was quite simple. I believed sobriety meant switching the type of drink you drank from alcoholic to non-alcoholic and everything else remained the same.
Wrong. I literally had no idea.
Switching the drink in your glass is literally the teeniest, tiniest tip of a VERY fu***ng mahoosive iceberg. In fact, the longer sober time goes on, the drink in the glass becomes fairly irrelevant, even obsolete in some cases, and real life becomes the absolute priority, the goal, the focus, the drive.
One of the fundamental things I never knew, or thought about, or let’s face it, gave two shiny sh*tes about when I was drinking, was that pouring poison into myself on a regular basis was a blatant disrespect to me. It was a form of self-harm, a desire to drown out how I felt, a form of escape from who I was and who I didn’t want to be. It crushed my creativity, numbed my mind and kept me living in a world of limbo with no ability to strive for a better life.
When I switched my drink, a light came back on. The fog lifted, the desire to live, to really, really live, flooded my every cell. As life became clearer, I realised it was the lack of love for myself that had been missing, that I hadn’t given myself a chance, that I had been so, so hard on myself, believing I wasn’t good enough to walk this planet without a drug swishing through my veins which made me, let’s face it, even less of the person I really wanted to be in the first place!
‘The work’ to learn you are good enough, that you are worthy, that you deserve so much more than crying into your Cava, is not easy, but unbelievably rewarding if you give it your all.
Make today the first day of the rest of your new life and get yourself back. I promise you’re worth waiting for 🩵
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